Cookies are back!
So much to catch up on- still overweight! Surprise! Well I am currently at 229, with losing a pound in the last week. So let's catch up.
October I was still going strong and went to Vegas for work. Started smoking again that time in Vegas. When I got back I threw out my back again and went dark for about 2 months. I completely fell off my wellness wagon. I started smoking, the diet went out of the window in seconds, and I stopped going to the gym since my back was killing me. So I gave up. I essentially didn't care. With that, I started feeling down on myself again, depression like state came over me. I was working longer hours because I didn't want to be home alone. Sad face - but I did it to myself!
So I entered the gym with pushing from my family. I hated it. I was ready for Brian to yell at me and tell me I quit and slacked. Well yeah, office gym door closed but no yelling. Just telling me to quit slacking and come back hard. So we started with a light workout and I was pissed. All the self doubt, aggression, and wanting to quit sunk in. When I think like that I fail myself everytime. I still do. I have been trying to say only 10 more seconds or you can do this you can do this to keep me going.
I started training again, and Tina has joined me! I love having someone to work out with. We push each other and my competitiveness kicks in.
So dieting. I was doing the diet from the trainer and I burnt myself out and started hating everything about eating. So my mom and I decided to do weight watchers together. To push each other and hold each other accountable. We have a weigh in every Sunday on family fun day! This week I am down a pound. I know I am not going to put up weekly weight loss numbers like the biggest loser. If I didnt have to work and live my live, I could work out all the time but that is not realistic. All health materials say 1-2 pound weight loss each week is sustainable and the best way to lose weight and keep it off.
So here we go again! Follow me on this journey! Updates to come! This year I vowed to be the year of change for the better. More surprises to come!
