So it has been awhile since I have blogged. I got away fro it because I just have not been excited about my workouts, my diet, or really anything :(
But I'm back! After working through somethings as well as refocusing I am back. My workouts were tough, I wasn't feeling great during them and the excuses came out. I can't do box jumps. I want to I just don't have the confidence to jump that high... I keep feeling like I'm going to fall flat on my face. I need to work on them with and without Brian. I need to build my confidence.
I went running yesterday. I do an interval running program that I love. I enjoy running outside rather than on the treadmill. It makes me feel like I am actually accomplishing something. On the treadmill I get bored. It was so fun to just run down Batesville road with the wind and the scenery. It's finally starting to cool off here where I don't have to run before 10 am. We all know I love my sleep. That was a workout for me. To run, feel accomplished, and clear my head. I need to make sure I am doing this for me. My motivation went away because I began to not care that I was doing this for me.
I spent some time looking through Crossfit on Pintrest and just heatlh, fitness, and motivation itself. Its a nive reminder. Every day I do something, is better than nothing. If I have a good workout, tomorrow's need to be better and then best! To me the pounds are important. I want to hit a goal weight number. However, I drove myself nuts over the pounds and that's what began to deter me. So my goal is fitness. I want to be able to run further without wanting to stop. I want to do box jumps and not fear falling on my face. I want to get through my Crossfit workouts without feeling like im going to throw up. I want to get through the tough ones and be like yes that was awesome! I dont want to feel OMG kill me. The only way I will is to do this for me. To keep going and to keep pushing.
Health and wellness is not a destination but a lifestyle. I have already changed y lifestyle so much to achieve this. I have not smoked a cigarette since August 2nd. I don't drink on a daily basis or even weekly. Before, it was pretty much daily. I don't eat fast food, lots of starches or carbs, and no longer binge on food. I eat with stability. Normal portion sizes. I eat lean protein, vegetables, some fruit, a few starches and stay away from sugar.
To continue- workout at 5 am tomorrow! Tomorrow morning is cardio where tomorrow I will train with Brian. We will see what workout he plans for me. I will embrace it, be excited about it, know that it will NOT kill me and I CAN make it through. If I remind myself the more I procrastinate the longer it lasts, I can push through and just get it done. I have never felt so horrible after a workout I regretted it. I have gone home after not working out and felt guilty for not going.
Favorite quote found on Pintrest today: "Because today is another chance to get it right"
