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So it has been awhile since I have blogged.  I got away fro it because I just have not been excited about my workouts, my diet, or really anything :(

But I'm back!  After working through somethings as well as refocusing I am back.  My workouts were tough, I wasn't feeling great during them and the excuses came out.  I can't do box jumps.  I want to I just don't have the confidence to jump that high... I keep feeling like I'm going to fall flat on my face.  I need to work on them with and without Brian. I need to build my confidence.

I went running yesterday.  I do an interval running program that I love.  I enjoy running outside rather than on the treadmill.  It makes me feel like I am actually accomplishing something. On the treadmill I get bored. It was so fun to just run  down Batesville road with the wind and the scenery. It's finally starting to cool off here where I don't have to run before 10 am.  We all know I love my sleep. That was a workout for me.  To run, feel accomplished, and clear my head.  I need to make sure I am doing this for me.  My motivation went away because I began to not care that I was doing this for me. 

I spent some time looking through Crossfit on Pintrest and just heatlh, fitness, and motivation itself.  Its a nive reminder.  Every day I do something, is better than nothing.  If I have a good workout, tomorrow's need to be better and then best! To me the pounds are important. I want to hit a goal weight number.  However, I drove myself nuts over the pounds and that's what began to deter me.  So my goal is fitness.  I want to be able to run further without wanting to stop.  I want to do box jumps and not fear falling on my face.  I want to get through my Crossfit workouts without feeling like im going to throw up.  I want to get through the tough ones and be like yes that was awesome! I dont want to feel OMG kill me.  The only way I will is to do this for me. To keep going and to keep pushing.

Health and wellness is not a destination but a lifestyle.  I have already changed y lifestyle so much to achieve this.  I have not smoked a cigarette since August 2nd.  I don't drink on a daily basis or even weekly. Before, it was pretty much daily.  I don't eat fast food, lots of starches or carbs, and no longer binge on food.  I eat with stability. Normal portion sizes. I eat lean protein, vegetables, some fruit, a few starches and stay away from sugar.

To continue- workout at 5 am tomorrow!  Tomorrow morning is cardio where tomorrow I will train with Brian.  We will see what workout he plans for me.  I will embrace it, be excited about it, know that it will NOT kill me and I CAN make it through.  If I remind myself the more I procrastinate the longer it lasts, I can push through and just get it done.  I have never felt so horrible after a workout I regretted it.  I have gone home after not working out and felt guilty for not going.

Favorite quote found on Pintrest today: "Because today is another chance to get it right"