Hey guys,
Lets just say its been awhile. My slack ass fell off the bandwagon. I stopped going to the gym I stopped eating right started smoking and just have up on all the hardwork I did. Now I feel like crap, slightly depressed, and just sick o it. Now I have a niece on the way and now more than ever I need to grow up and take care of myself. Anytime I am unhappy with my life I eat. I eat, and I eat some more. Food has always been a way out for me and who knows what my weight has gone to now. Well I will find out soon enough as tomorrow I am weighing in!
I am going to do this. No one but myself can make this happen. I just need to stick to it and stay motivated. Here is my game plan:
Diet: vegetables, proteins, protein shakes, breakfast lunch and dinner home poked everyday. Clean eating for clean living. This will give me variety with food but healthy options for every meal.
Workouts: 30 minutes of cardio a day, I will run. I want to run. If I run I will quit smoking. I want to do 5ks and 10ks and mud runs. I can I just have to get into shape.
I will continue to do strength and endurance training. Squats, planks, pull ups, push ups, everything. If I am goin to be climbing over walls in a mud run I need to be able to lift myself.
I feel so stupid for stopping and giving up the last couple months. My goal is the gym 6 days a week and home cooked meals everyday. One splurge meal a week. I'm not perfect and pretty sure not the only one to fail on weight loss. Except I haven't failed because I'm not giving u!
So read along if you would like to see how this goes!
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Monday, January 21, 2013
Cookies are back!
Cookies are back!
So much to catch up on- still overweight! Surprise! Well I am currently at 229, with losing a pound in the last week. So let's catch up.
October I was still going strong and went to Vegas for work. Started smoking again that time in Vegas. When I got back I threw out my back again and went dark for about 2 months. I completely fell off my wellness wagon. I started smoking, the diet went out of the window in seconds, and I stopped going to the gym since my back was killing me. So I gave up. I essentially didn't care. With that, I started feeling down on myself again, depression like state came over me. I was working longer hours because I didn't want to be home alone. Sad face - but I did it to myself!
So I entered the gym with pushing from my family. I hated it. I was ready for Brian to yell at me and tell me I quit and slacked. Well yeah, office gym door closed but no yelling. Just telling me to quit slacking and come back hard. So we started with a light workout and I was pissed. All the self doubt, aggression, and wanting to quit sunk in. When I think like that I fail myself everytime. I still do. I have been trying to say only 10 more seconds or you can do this you can do this to keep me going.
I started training again, and Tina has joined me! I love having someone to work out with. We push each other and my competitiveness kicks in.
So dieting. I was doing the diet from the trainer and I burnt myself out and started hating everything about eating. So my mom and I decided to do weight watchers together. To push each other and hold each other accountable. We have a weigh in every Sunday on family fun day! This week I am down a pound. I know I am not going to put up weekly weight loss numbers like the biggest loser. If I didnt have to work and live my live, I could work out all the time but that is not realistic. All health materials say 1-2 pound weight loss each week is sustainable and the best way to lose weight and keep it off.
So here we go again! Follow me on this journey! Updates to come! This year I vowed to be the year of change for the better. More surprises to come!
So much to catch up on- still overweight! Surprise! Well I am currently at 229, with losing a pound in the last week. So let's catch up.
October I was still going strong and went to Vegas for work. Started smoking again that time in Vegas. When I got back I threw out my back again and went dark for about 2 months. I completely fell off my wellness wagon. I started smoking, the diet went out of the window in seconds, and I stopped going to the gym since my back was killing me. So I gave up. I essentially didn't care. With that, I started feeling down on myself again, depression like state came over me. I was working longer hours because I didn't want to be home alone. Sad face - but I did it to myself!
So I entered the gym with pushing from my family. I hated it. I was ready for Brian to yell at me and tell me I quit and slacked. Well yeah, office gym door closed but no yelling. Just telling me to quit slacking and come back hard. So we started with a light workout and I was pissed. All the self doubt, aggression, and wanting to quit sunk in. When I think like that I fail myself everytime. I still do. I have been trying to say only 10 more seconds or you can do this you can do this to keep me going.
I started training again, and Tina has joined me! I love having someone to work out with. We push each other and my competitiveness kicks in.
So dieting. I was doing the diet from the trainer and I burnt myself out and started hating everything about eating. So my mom and I decided to do weight watchers together. To push each other and hold each other accountable. We have a weigh in every Sunday on family fun day! This week I am down a pound. I know I am not going to put up weekly weight loss numbers like the biggest loser. If I didnt have to work and live my live, I could work out all the time but that is not realistic. All health materials say 1-2 pound weight loss each week is sustainable and the best way to lose weight and keep it off.
So here we go again! Follow me on this journey! Updates to come! This year I vowed to be the year of change for the better. More surprises to come!
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Cookies Get Muddy!
So here we go! Frid night I get a call asking me to join a mud run team for Saturday morning. I have been thinking about it and then with help from my trainer Brian and others around me I decided to do it. I was nervous. I had never done one before or even know what was involved. So therefore, I didnt want to be the big fat fatty that couldn't do it. I got over that. I figured I have dropped weight, inches, training regularly, and just an overhaul improved health and well-being. I figured they knew what I look like they know I am working to lose weight and better myself.
It was AMAZING. I had so much fun. Of course there were obstacles I couldn't physcially get myself over and others that terrifed me to death with heights. I supported my team and helped them and we all worked together. It was a blast. I want to do it again in the Spring and hopefully get through more than I did this time! It was so great as you were finishing the last couple obstacles in the main area, people are cheering you on to finish!
So here we are all nice and clean before the race. Our team was the birds, since we are not from South Carolina, we flew in! lol...
There are tons of photos on my Facebook from the whole event. I am bruised from my arms to my toes. I think I broke my big toe. I didn't care though. It was the best experience and I cant wait to do it again :)
Today was back at it. I didn't workout last night and felt guilty. I iced my foot instead. Today I did thrusters. Lots and lots of thrusters! Im back in my routine and the Mud Run only energized me to do more and push through!
Things are going great for me in every aspect. Tomrrow October 3rd, will be two months no smoking. The last time I smoked a cigarette was two months ago today. I cant believe how much I have improved my health and really put myself first.
Minus the goofy ass smile on my face, but my reward continues to be my success. For the first time in my life I am wearing a medium size t-shirt. It's not really about the pounds, its about the fitness, and I am really starting to see that. The goal is wellness and fitness not a number.
Pintrest Crossfit Quote of the Blog:
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Cookies Go Big!
So tonight felt great! I don't normally train on Tuesdays but it was a nice change :) Tonight the rain cleared by the time it was gym time. So we worked out outside! Below 80 degrees.... Ill take it!
I wasn't neverous and kept telling myself you can do this. You have done this for the last 9 weeks keep going you got this. Plus now Im addicted to Crossfit on Pintrest. That extra motivation always helps :)
Well Brian had a simple one planned for tonight. Not easy but simple. Rowing and wall balls. Thats it. Five rounds. Ended up rowing around 1500 meters and did like 150 wall balls. Yeah my thighs will hate me... oh well! Smaller thighs for me :) Half-way through all I wanted was quit. Then I thought to myself don't give up. Why are you putting up excuses... just bear down pull that damn bar and get that round of rowing done!! Brian of course was there to support and encourage me!
In my slump Brian understood, didn't judge or get mad just pushed me through. Tonight was a great workout. I need to stay on track. I really enjoy these workouts. Whether its the idea of actually finishing them, knowing how much further I pushed myself... Im becoming a Crossfit junkie! lol.....
So Pintrest has been my extra motivation the last couple days to go back big with my training. Here are some of my favorites! You can always follow me on Pintrest!
I wasn't neverous and kept telling myself you can do this. You have done this for the last 9 weeks keep going you got this. Plus now Im addicted to Crossfit on Pintrest. That extra motivation always helps :)
Well Brian had a simple one planned for tonight. Not easy but simple. Rowing and wall balls. Thats it. Five rounds. Ended up rowing around 1500 meters and did like 150 wall balls. Yeah my thighs will hate me... oh well! Smaller thighs for me :) Half-way through all I wanted was quit. Then I thought to myself don't give up. Why are you putting up excuses... just bear down pull that damn bar and get that round of rowing done!! Brian of course was there to support and encourage me!
So Pintrest has been my extra motivation the last couple days to go back big with my training. Here are some of my favorites! You can always follow me on Pintrest!
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Cookies Checking In
So it has been awhile since I have blogged. I got away fro it because I just have not been excited about my workouts, my diet, or really anything :(
But I'm back! After working through somethings as well as refocusing I am back. My workouts were tough, I wasn't feeling great during them and the excuses came out. I can't do box jumps. I want to I just don't have the confidence to jump that high... I keep feeling like I'm going to fall flat on my face. I need to work on them with and without Brian. I need to build my confidence.
I went running yesterday. I do an interval running program that I love. I enjoy running outside rather than on the treadmill. It makes me feel like I am actually accomplishing something. On the treadmill I get bored. It was so fun to just run down Batesville road with the wind and the scenery. It's finally starting to cool off here where I don't have to run before 10 am. We all know I love my sleep. That was a workout for me. To run, feel accomplished, and clear my head. I need to make sure I am doing this for me. My motivation went away because I began to not care that I was doing this for me.
I spent some time looking through Crossfit on Pintrest and just heatlh, fitness, and motivation itself. Its a nive reminder. Every day I do something, is better than nothing. If I have a good workout, tomorrow's need to be better and then best! To me the pounds are important. I want to hit a goal weight number. However, I drove myself nuts over the pounds and that's what began to deter me. So my goal is fitness. I want to be able to run further without wanting to stop. I want to do box jumps and not fear falling on my face. I want to get through my Crossfit workouts without feeling like im going to throw up. I want to get through the tough ones and be like yes that was awesome! I dont want to feel OMG kill me. The only way I will is to do this for me. To keep going and to keep pushing.
Health and wellness is not a destination but a lifestyle. I have already changed y lifestyle so much to achieve this. I have not smoked a cigarette since August 2nd. I don't drink on a daily basis or even weekly. Before, it was pretty much daily. I don't eat fast food, lots of starches or carbs, and no longer binge on food. I eat with stability. Normal portion sizes. I eat lean protein, vegetables, some fruit, a few starches and stay away from sugar.
To continue- workout at 5 am tomorrow! Tomorrow morning is cardio where tomorrow I will train with Brian. We will see what workout he plans for me. I will embrace it, be excited about it, know that it will NOT kill me and I CAN make it through. If I remind myself the more I procrastinate the longer it lasts, I can push through and just get it done. I have never felt so horrible after a workout I regretted it. I have gone home after not working out and felt guilty for not going.
Favorite quote found on Pintrest today: "Because today is another chance to get it right"
But I'm back! After working through somethings as well as refocusing I am back. My workouts were tough, I wasn't feeling great during them and the excuses came out. I can't do box jumps. I want to I just don't have the confidence to jump that high... I keep feeling like I'm going to fall flat on my face. I need to work on them with and without Brian. I need to build my confidence.
I went running yesterday. I do an interval running program that I love. I enjoy running outside rather than on the treadmill. It makes me feel like I am actually accomplishing something. On the treadmill I get bored. It was so fun to just run down Batesville road with the wind and the scenery. It's finally starting to cool off here where I don't have to run before 10 am. We all know I love my sleep. That was a workout for me. To run, feel accomplished, and clear my head. I need to make sure I am doing this for me. My motivation went away because I began to not care that I was doing this for me.
I spent some time looking through Crossfit on Pintrest and just heatlh, fitness, and motivation itself. Its a nive reminder. Every day I do something, is better than nothing. If I have a good workout, tomorrow's need to be better and then best! To me the pounds are important. I want to hit a goal weight number. However, I drove myself nuts over the pounds and that's what began to deter me. So my goal is fitness. I want to be able to run further without wanting to stop. I want to do box jumps and not fear falling on my face. I want to get through my Crossfit workouts without feeling like im going to throw up. I want to get through the tough ones and be like yes that was awesome! I dont want to feel OMG kill me. The only way I will is to do this for me. To keep going and to keep pushing.
Health and wellness is not a destination but a lifestyle. I have already changed y lifestyle so much to achieve this. I have not smoked a cigarette since August 2nd. I don't drink on a daily basis or even weekly. Before, it was pretty much daily. I don't eat fast food, lots of starches or carbs, and no longer binge on food. I eat with stability. Normal portion sizes. I eat lean protein, vegetables, some fruit, a few starches and stay away from sugar.
To continue- workout at 5 am tomorrow! Tomorrow morning is cardio where tomorrow I will train with Brian. We will see what workout he plans for me. I will embrace it, be excited about it, know that it will NOT kill me and I CAN make it through. If I remind myself the more I procrastinate the longer it lasts, I can push through and just get it done. I have never felt so horrible after a workout I regretted it. I have gone home after not working out and felt guilty for not going.
Favorite quote found on Pintrest today: "Because today is another chance to get it right"
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Cookies Exhausted
Well I weighed in. I gained two pounds. I am beating myself up about it. The excuses are as follows:
- I quit smoking
- I cheated on my diet
- I slacked in my gym routines
- Stress with work
Oh well. I cant be perfect. I accepted my gain and realized its not worth it. Its not worth it to cheat to lose progress going forward. That's stupid. Lol. I don't want to have to resort to burpies! I hate them!
Monday I started back, harder than ever. I did a 5 am workout on Monday, and evening workout on Tuesday, another evening workout tonight and Im debating the next two days. With all the other crap in my life, Im exhausted! I haven't slept in days and panic attacks are kicking in.
Im not going to let that stop me. I had a panic attack tonight on the threadmill, well this new treadmill the gym bought. But I just stopped got my breathing under control, paused and then started back. I know this has been a whirlwind but I need to be able to handle anything thrown at me. Im working on these panic attacks.
I have stuck to my diet since it was given Monday night. I have drank more protein than ever! In fact that is all I had today excpet 4 eggs this morning! Oh another thing I learned. Yoplait light, almond milk and protein- so good! I can finally eat yogurt. I have always hated the smell, the taste, and it just made me sick to think about it. Well if you want to lose weight you have to eat for fit not for fun. I think I am finally moving past the whole notion of enjoying the flavor and a variety of foods. For now, its just ok for the goal I am working towards and thats ok. When I do hit my goal and return to a normal diet, those will be luxuries in moderation where I don't blow up to a blimp again.
Well, Im off to take some melatonin and hopefully sleep tonight. On a sad note I will not be going to ABR Weekend this year :( Go Team Redmond! Its probably a good thing- a weekend full of drinking and eating is probably not what I need. Oh those ribs... lol.... it is the rib cook off.. Oh well love my friends and family and will miss yall this year, but will definitely be there next year for year 13!
Cookies cooling off
- I quit smoking
- I cheated on my diet
- I slacked in my gym routines
- Stress with work
Oh well. I cant be perfect. I accepted my gain and realized its not worth it. Its not worth it to cheat to lose progress going forward. That's stupid. Lol. I don't want to have to resort to burpies! I hate them!
Monday I started back, harder than ever. I did a 5 am workout on Monday, and evening workout on Tuesday, another evening workout tonight and Im debating the next two days. With all the other crap in my life, Im exhausted! I haven't slept in days and panic attacks are kicking in.
Im not going to let that stop me. I had a panic attack tonight on the threadmill, well this new treadmill the gym bought. But I just stopped got my breathing under control, paused and then started back. I know this has been a whirlwind but I need to be able to handle anything thrown at me. Im working on these panic attacks.
I have stuck to my diet since it was given Monday night. I have drank more protein than ever! In fact that is all I had today excpet 4 eggs this morning! Oh another thing I learned. Yoplait light, almond milk and protein- so good! I can finally eat yogurt. I have always hated the smell, the taste, and it just made me sick to think about it. Well if you want to lose weight you have to eat for fit not for fun. I think I am finally moving past the whole notion of enjoying the flavor and a variety of foods. For now, its just ok for the goal I am working towards and thats ok. When I do hit my goal and return to a normal diet, those will be luxuries in moderation where I don't blow up to a blimp again.
Well, Im off to take some melatonin and hopefully sleep tonight. On a sad note I will not be going to ABR Weekend this year :( Go Team Redmond! Its probably a good thing- a weekend full of drinking and eating is probably not what I need. Oh those ribs... lol.... it is the rib cook off.. Oh well love my friends and family and will miss yall this year, but will definitely be there next year for year 13!
Cookies cooling off
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