So an update. I have been going through some things personally that have been overlapping into aspects of my life I love. I don't want to go into details but I need to remember I live my life everyday for myself, my family, and my friends. Your no better off than the ones that support you the most. Just a slump I need to push through for my own well being.
I made a decision about 5 weeks ago to change my life, for me, for the better. I love and support those around me but I'm not doing this for them or for anyone. Its my daily decision to work hard and then take me time to work on myself. Not only have I made a diet change or a workout change. I have made a lifestyle change to better myself. For the last 5 or so weeks I have been happy. I am working out, getting healthy, and really embracing life. I can't focus on one negative because I feel like I'm cheating myself out of living for today.
Tonight was training and wasn't that motivated but it was routine to change after work and head to the gym. One thing I will take away from tonight is focusing on this fact that I want to succeed and those helping and supporting me want me to succeed. Thank god I wasn't climbing a rope or walking around with a 50 pound sand bag but tonight's workout was focused on key areas and paying attention to form, reps and the overall well being of each exercise.
Through all this I was able to stare in the mirror ( the awful mirrors I hate to stare in) but saw a reflection different than I have before. I saw myself determined to do well and push myself harder while focusing on form and doing it right each time. In the mirror I always saw an overweight person looking to attempt to do something. Today I saw me as I am happy to be in perfect form and focusing on my weaknesses. I have been working on squat form the ensure weight on my heels and my back curved correctly and my neck in the right position. When Brian told me my form was excellent and he's really seeing my improvement and excited to see the progress I have made, really lit something inside of me.
No longer am I looking in the mirror ashamed of what I see or thinking about what I will see, but seeing me. If I don't see myself as I am how do I expect anyone else to. You can't live life looking in the past or always what could be. This is who I am and loving it.
Kinda sappy and short blog tonight but I just thought I would share. Hope you enjoy! To those who have commented or text me or facebpoked me I really appreciate your support. It's really touching to see how me finally focusing on me has inspired others to do the same in their own life.
Happy blogging!
You are a beautiful young woman with a big heart. I am glad to read you are doing well!
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