Well the one thing I have said from the beginning is that I was going to be completely honest. Well, honestly, I suck. Over the last 3-4 weeks I have failed. I have dropped off my diet, have not stuck to my exercise plan 110%, and just let myself, my trainer and everyone else down, even if they don't know it.
Over the last couple weeks I have let other influences get in the way. I know I need to do this for me and only I can do this. I need to recommit myself 110% again. I need to stick to the diet perfectly, and get my ass in the gym at least six days a week. I need to increase my cardio sessions and push myself harder in training. I have been lazy and getting frustrated and hiding it through eating. Yes eating.
I always have vented through food. Emotional eating. Whether I was happy, frustrated, pissed or excited. All of it relates to food. I have always remembered overeating, eating when I was bored, and just eating. I like eating. But what I never let myself realize is that I cannot eat just to eat. I would hide food, or eat really fast so no one would find me eating it. That all needs to change. I need to focus on eating for health and not eating to eat. Food gives you energy to lose the weight. I cant continue like this. My goal for this month was 18 pounds and now I have gained two. That's why I havent been on here. I was not excited to write or happy about what I should be writing. That's all changing.
I obviously have the will power to do this, as long as I keep myself focused. I have completely changed my life in the last 9 weeks. I have dramatically cut back on drinking, changed my entire diet (minus the recent cheating), started an intense workout routine, and quit smoking cold turkey. I do give myself credit for all that has changed but I also hate myself for what I have done the last couple weeks to basically sabotage the success I have had.
I have researched emotional eating as well as focusing methods. So from now on starting tomorrow morning, I will record everything. I will record each time I eat, how much I eat, and how hungry I was before and after. This way over time I can monitor how hungry I was compared to the amount of food I ate. Overeating and not stopping when full is one of my biggest issues. Shouldn't be a problem with portion control on my diet but I need to almost be obsessed I feel. I need to keep myself more honest. At least Ill be able to look back and see I did not over eat I did not cheat and here is the proof.
I will also be recording each workout, the length, and what occurred. My training I will not be sharing all the details as that's not fair to my trainer to just put it out there for all to see and use. If I take the next 6-9 weeks to just focus on eating correctly and working out correctly, it will lead to the break of 200. Again that is my first major goal and essentially my halfway point for me.
Well now that I have shared the crumbles, I am off to relax watch some tv and then get ready for my 5 am cardio workout tomorrow.
I hope no one stops reading because of my recent failure, however, no one is perfect and at least im honest about it.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Monday, August 6, 2012
Cookies Count 1-2-3 5-10-15
1. I ran my first 5k on Saturday!!! It was great! I didn't run nearly as long as I wanted to but I ran with Trish and just kept going! My biggest problem was breathing. I didn't know the right way to breathe and so I spent more time pacing my breathing than focusing on the run. That was a nice distraction. Just after passing Nile marker two, a woman near us said don't focus on how much further you have to go but shorter distances. One great and immensely helpful distance was tree to tree. As long as I kept focusing on the next tree I wasn't realizing now long I was running or the distance , just kept going. All the way to the finish where my sister was and took this wonderful picture!!!
(since I'm doing this on my phone don't know where the pic is going to show!!)
Afterwards I decided my shoes suck and went shopping with mom. We went over by the mall and found the Greenville Running Company. I know good running shoes makes all the difference! I got new shoes found them as soon as I pulled up, they had my size (which is rare with my big feet) and they were on sale! It was heaven and they feel like heaven when I'm running in them! Here they are!!
2. My second run was with my sister on Sunday. I know I already ran the 5k but not the best. So we are running the couch to 5k program to get better and I can build stamina to running. It was so much fun to just go running with my sister and for us to push each other through some friendly competition! We had a great run around the Riverside area and I felt great afterwards. I'm assuming she did too as she went running again today :)
3. Well three is how many meals I cheated with this weekend :( First up was the salad on Saturday night at Buffalo Wild Wings( yes it was a salad but buffalo chicken it was 647 calories.) Right now I have not been eating over 1200 calories a day. Sunday broke with a veggie omelette for breakfast at Southern Tymes with Steve and Kristy. I miss that place and it was such a great omelette! Finally was Sunday night at the Drive game. I knew it would happen and it did end up costing me. Weighed in today and gained a pound. It made me realize no matter how tasty the food I must follow the diet and my workouts to reach my goal. My motto has always been go big or go home and I'm not going to stop now!
5. Tomorrow will be five days since I have smoked a cigarette. I think I will always crave one and that feeling inside from smoking one. But if I'm changing my diet, quit drinking, and working out hardcore why would I continue to smoke and hinder my physical health. So I quit and gum has become my new obsession. I kinda feel my want to cigarettes is similar to that of food. I love the flavor of food and the taste of it just as a cigarette. But smoking a pack a day to satisfy that or over eat or eat pizza all the time because it tastes good is just as damaging. So I quit and will stay a non smoker. There was a huge difference tonight. My chest was not hurting and I could breathe!
10. Sits ups I did each round. Tonight was 5-10-15 and rowing. Oh yeah plus my 16 warm up between walking and running and 7 minutes of stretching. So 10. Ten butterfly sit ups each round. The rest of each round included push ups and squats. The hardest part as sit ups. If you have been reading my past entires at all you know I hate sit ups and just over 6-8 weeks ago I couldn't even do one on the floor. After adding it up I did over 135 full proper sit ups tonight. I was proud. I pushed I kept my drive going and did what I could to get through. I thought about the woman from the 5k. Granted I could not count trees because I was on the ground inside a gym, I could make my own goals through each ten. Like I am going to do three nonstop without grabbing my legs. Mini goals within the overall goal helped. Brian kept making fun of me because I kept asking what his goals for me and within what time frame. My awesome math skills allowed me to set smaller goals such as each round shouldn't take me more than 2 minutes or I should be rowing 250meters ever minute. Those mini goals help A LOT!
15. I may only be down 15 pounds ( because I gained) but I can tell physically I have completely changes. Smoking alone has been a huge feat. But within that 15 pounds I have strengthened my core, built up my back, legs and arms. I can push myself physically a lot harder than I could. I know it can't be all about the pounds and the pounds will come in time. I just need to think eat healthy, don't smoke and go big in the gym and the pounds will fall!
This was a long one but haven't blogged in awhile and had a lot to say! Well I must crash now because I'm getting up at 5 to workout before work so after I can play tennis. Hope you enjoyed the read!
Keep sweating:)
(since I'm doing this on my phone don't know where the pic is going to show!!)
Afterwards I decided my shoes suck and went shopping with mom. We went over by the mall and found the Greenville Running Company. I know good running shoes makes all the difference! I got new shoes found them as soon as I pulled up, they had my size (which is rare with my big feet) and they were on sale! It was heaven and they feel like heaven when I'm running in them! Here they are!!
2. My second run was with my sister on Sunday. I know I already ran the 5k but not the best. So we are running the couch to 5k program to get better and I can build stamina to running. It was so much fun to just go running with my sister and for us to push each other through some friendly competition! We had a great run around the Riverside area and I felt great afterwards. I'm assuming she did too as she went running again today :)
3. Well three is how many meals I cheated with this weekend :( First up was the salad on Saturday night at Buffalo Wild Wings( yes it was a salad but buffalo chicken it was 647 calories.) Right now I have not been eating over 1200 calories a day. Sunday broke with a veggie omelette for breakfast at Southern Tymes with Steve and Kristy. I miss that place and it was such a great omelette! Finally was Sunday night at the Drive game. I knew it would happen and it did end up costing me. Weighed in today and gained a pound. It made me realize no matter how tasty the food I must follow the diet and my workouts to reach my goal. My motto has always been go big or go home and I'm not going to stop now!
5. Tomorrow will be five days since I have smoked a cigarette. I think I will always crave one and that feeling inside from smoking one. But if I'm changing my diet, quit drinking, and working out hardcore why would I continue to smoke and hinder my physical health. So I quit and gum has become my new obsession. I kinda feel my want to cigarettes is similar to that of food. I love the flavor of food and the taste of it just as a cigarette. But smoking a pack a day to satisfy that or over eat or eat pizza all the time because it tastes good is just as damaging. So I quit and will stay a non smoker. There was a huge difference tonight. My chest was not hurting and I could breathe!
10. Sits ups I did each round. Tonight was 5-10-15 and rowing. Oh yeah plus my 16 warm up between walking and running and 7 minutes of stretching. So 10. Ten butterfly sit ups each round. The rest of each round included push ups and squats. The hardest part as sit ups. If you have been reading my past entires at all you know I hate sit ups and just over 6-8 weeks ago I couldn't even do one on the floor. After adding it up I did over 135 full proper sit ups tonight. I was proud. I pushed I kept my drive going and did what I could to get through. I thought about the woman from the 5k. Granted I could not count trees because I was on the ground inside a gym, I could make my own goals through each ten. Like I am going to do three nonstop without grabbing my legs. Mini goals within the overall goal helped. Brian kept making fun of me because I kept asking what his goals for me and within what time frame. My awesome math skills allowed me to set smaller goals such as each round shouldn't take me more than 2 minutes or I should be rowing 250meters ever minute. Those mini goals help A LOT!
15. I may only be down 15 pounds ( because I gained) but I can tell physically I have completely changes. Smoking alone has been a huge feat. But within that 15 pounds I have strengthened my core, built up my back, legs and arms. I can push myself physically a lot harder than I could. I know it can't be all about the pounds and the pounds will come in time. I just need to think eat healthy, don't smoke and go big in the gym and the pounds will fall!
This was a long one but haven't blogged in awhile and had a lot to say! Well I must crash now because I'm getting up at 5 to workout before work so after I can play tennis. Hope you enjoyed the read!
Keep sweating:)
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Cookies Crumble... Then Bounce Back
I know its been awhile since I have blogged but I must say this first.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Ok, now that that is out, I can breathe again. So why the cookies crumble. Last weekend fell off the diet a bit and cheated. Felt really guilty and struggled with it for a bit. Then Monday came and I said enough is enough time to get my ass back in the gym and go for it. 18 pounds is my goal for August.
Monday was training with Brian and it was outside. It was around 90 degrees outside. Some cheating has caused me headaches again and I don't think its from not eating because all I do is eat work and gym. I made it three rounds in to bear crawls and lunges before I couldn't breathe, chest hurt, and felt dizzy. I was pissed because I couldn't do it and gave up before I felt like I was going to faint.
Tuesday was cardio to get ready for this weekend. Oh that's right, no one knows. I am running my first ever 5k on Saturday for the fight against child abuse and sexual assault. I am doing it with my mom and I am really excited and trying to prep in under a week.
Today the headache was back but I had my protein and my meals. Going into tonight, Brian asked if I wanted to do the workout from Monday start to finish and I was determined to get through it no matter if it killed me. Well I get there and he decides we are going to stay in because it was still 94 degrees outside and I am guessing he didn't think I was ready for it. I don't know if I was or could have made it through it but the next time he brings it up I will kill it no matter if I throw up afterwards or not.
So the reason for the ahhhhhh! I did my warm of up interval running and lots and lots of stretching. Then I find out we are staying inside. First thing first is we are doing three different things at 30 20 10 and then repeat 4 times. The goal was 20 minutes. I can honestly tell you I did not make that goal. 34 minutes. :( Between the jumps, that stupid medicine ball that I feel has it out for me, and pushups I was huffing and puffing to get through. One of the things I love about Brian is he knows how far to push me before cracking and now has developed a scare tactic to use against me.
Brian's scare tactic against me = burpies. What I refer to as up down hell. I was struggling with form on the medicine ball and just trying to figure out how I should be positioned and doing what Brian seemed to demonstrate as easy. I kept focusing on form. I kept slipping. He started saying you mess this up- BURPIE. So he said he was going to start counting burpies in his head after I did three. Luckily, by the end I did not have to do more. The thought of doing those pushed me through.
One thing I didn't like that held me back was I was having trouble deep breathing and was sweating my ass off. Now I know its from the smoking, but I am going to have to make the decision to finally quit sooner or later. I've tried many times before and failed or only succeeded for a few months. He had good reasoning saying your doing all this work to make yourself healthy and your going to continue to do that. You have to make the decision and soon so you can continue to push yourself further in your workouts.
It took extra motivation and him pushing me to get through it. I have the determination but damn. I felt bad that I wasn't pushing myself hard enough for him, since he was helping me reach my goals. I know I need to not give up on myself and when it hurts push through.
So the crumbling- fall of the diet and lack of pushing myself and the gym. Result- no pounds lost this week thus far. My goal is at least 1 ponds hopefully 2 by Saturday.
The bounce back- I will do this. I will lose 18 more this month. I will complete the 5k on Saturday. I will work to push myself harder in the gym and in my training sessions. I owe it to myself to go big on this and just get healthy once and for all.
Now Im off to watch the Olympics and hopefully sleep because this chick is spent.
Good night!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Ok, now that that is out, I can breathe again. So why the cookies crumble. Last weekend fell off the diet a bit and cheated. Felt really guilty and struggled with it for a bit. Then Monday came and I said enough is enough time to get my ass back in the gym and go for it. 18 pounds is my goal for August.
Monday was training with Brian and it was outside. It was around 90 degrees outside. Some cheating has caused me headaches again and I don't think its from not eating because all I do is eat work and gym. I made it three rounds in to bear crawls and lunges before I couldn't breathe, chest hurt, and felt dizzy. I was pissed because I couldn't do it and gave up before I felt like I was going to faint.
Tuesday was cardio to get ready for this weekend. Oh that's right, no one knows. I am running my first ever 5k on Saturday for the fight against child abuse and sexual assault. I am doing it with my mom and I am really excited and trying to prep in under a week.
Today the headache was back but I had my protein and my meals. Going into tonight, Brian asked if I wanted to do the workout from Monday start to finish and I was determined to get through it no matter if it killed me. Well I get there and he decides we are going to stay in because it was still 94 degrees outside and I am guessing he didn't think I was ready for it. I don't know if I was or could have made it through it but the next time he brings it up I will kill it no matter if I throw up afterwards or not.
So the reason for the ahhhhhh! I did my warm of up interval running and lots and lots of stretching. Then I find out we are staying inside. First thing first is we are doing three different things at 30 20 10 and then repeat 4 times. The goal was 20 minutes. I can honestly tell you I did not make that goal. 34 minutes. :( Between the jumps, that stupid medicine ball that I feel has it out for me, and pushups I was huffing and puffing to get through. One of the things I love about Brian is he knows how far to push me before cracking and now has developed a scare tactic to use against me.
Brian's scare tactic against me = burpies. What I refer to as up down hell. I was struggling with form on the medicine ball and just trying to figure out how I should be positioned and doing what Brian seemed to demonstrate as easy. I kept focusing on form. I kept slipping. He started saying you mess this up- BURPIE. So he said he was going to start counting burpies in his head after I did three. Luckily, by the end I did not have to do more. The thought of doing those pushed me through.
One thing I didn't like that held me back was I was having trouble deep breathing and was sweating my ass off. Now I know its from the smoking, but I am going to have to make the decision to finally quit sooner or later. I've tried many times before and failed or only succeeded for a few months. He had good reasoning saying your doing all this work to make yourself healthy and your going to continue to do that. You have to make the decision and soon so you can continue to push yourself further in your workouts.
It took extra motivation and him pushing me to get through it. I have the determination but damn. I felt bad that I wasn't pushing myself hard enough for him, since he was helping me reach my goals. I know I need to not give up on myself and when it hurts push through.
So the crumbling- fall of the diet and lack of pushing myself and the gym. Result- no pounds lost this week thus far. My goal is at least 1 ponds hopefully 2 by Saturday.
The bounce back- I will do this. I will lose 18 more this month. I will complete the 5k on Saturday. I will work to push myself harder in the gym and in my training sessions. I owe it to myself to go big on this and just get healthy once and for all.
Now Im off to watch the Olympics and hopefully sleep because this chick is spent.
Good night!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Oh Cookies, The Journey Goes On
Well its the start of another week. Well it should have been yesterday, however, I ended up with heat exhaustion or a heat stroke from Sunday. To rewind, I ran errands all day Saturday, then laid by the pool with mom. After some nice R & R, I hit the gym. I didnt want to go but I knew I would feel better after I went so I did. Out of blue I felt like weighing myself. ANOTHER 3 POUNDS! YAY! I was so excited I put in an extra hard workout and felt great. After hanging out with family and friends I decided it was time for me to crash.
Sunday I got up and had my turkey bacon, green tea, and multi-grain waffle. Im really beginning to enjoy this breakfast I get once a week :) I then hit the courts to play some tennis with a friend. It felt great being out there and playing. I was sweating like crazy, which if you know me, I sweat .... all the time. After that it was time to hit the pool to cool off. Once thing I didn't realize was even though I wasn't sweating and enjoying the pool, I was not hydrating as much as I was sweating. I decided to leave family dinner early because I was tired. I didn't get my Sunday nap, so nothing out of the ordinary. That's until I got home and starting having hot and cold sweats on top of dry heaving and a massive headache. Mom and Brian did some digging and voila- heat exhaustion.
Unfortunately I woke up Monday even worse. I couldn't even move. Luckily I was able to stay home, sleep, and hydrate all day. I slept more yesterday that I have in months. Which is really shocking, but damn did I need rest.
I head back to work today and hit it hard. The end of the month is coming and being out yesterday I had work to do. Slowly through the day I was feeling better and still riding out of the high of my three pounds. That was until I got to the gym. LOL Just kidding.
I was excited to work out again. Its finally showing all my hard work. Brian, my trainer, was so nice to fit me on Tuesday instead of Monday. Damn that sucked, and was intense. Between squats, sit-ups, push ups and ball drops I was DONE. Can't focus on the negatives because I wont go back. So some positives. I made it through 4 minutes of squats, thighs burning like hell. Lol. Sit ups. Now if you follow my blog you will remember my rant a couple weeks ago about not being able to do situps and it was something I was pissed about. Yeah that's right, made it through 4 minutes of sit ups! I was excited to see that improvement, even though my abs pretty much hate me right now. Push ups I made it through and then finally the ball drops. That ball got so heavy over the 4 minutes I wanted to cry. I did it. I made it through.
One thing I can always count on is having a unique workout each time I go. The other aspect that I love is that I am constantly working out all parts of my body, regardless of the fact that I can barely move them now.
Oh well, no pain no gain or in my case no loss. Time to cook some dinner, shower, and hang out with Pax until I fall asleep which I predict is not far in my future.
Thanks for reading and coming along this journey with me.
Oh yeah- weight update. I am at 218. In January I was 239 and Saturday I was 218. I have lost 15 pounds since I started this blog in June and have been working with Brian. 65 pounds total to go. However there is one more exciting thing in the 218. I am 18 pounds from breaking 200. I have not weighed below 200 pounds since the 5th grade. 18 more pounds until my first big hurdle... I cannot wait!!!!
Sunday I got up and had my turkey bacon, green tea, and multi-grain waffle. Im really beginning to enjoy this breakfast I get once a week :) I then hit the courts to play some tennis with a friend. It felt great being out there and playing. I was sweating like crazy, which if you know me, I sweat .... all the time. After that it was time to hit the pool to cool off. Once thing I didn't realize was even though I wasn't sweating and enjoying the pool, I was not hydrating as much as I was sweating. I decided to leave family dinner early because I was tired. I didn't get my Sunday nap, so nothing out of the ordinary. That's until I got home and starting having hot and cold sweats on top of dry heaving and a massive headache. Mom and Brian did some digging and voila- heat exhaustion.
Unfortunately I woke up Monday even worse. I couldn't even move. Luckily I was able to stay home, sleep, and hydrate all day. I slept more yesterday that I have in months. Which is really shocking, but damn did I need rest.
I head back to work today and hit it hard. The end of the month is coming and being out yesterday I had work to do. Slowly through the day I was feeling better and still riding out of the high of my three pounds. That was until I got to the gym. LOL Just kidding.
I was excited to work out again. Its finally showing all my hard work. Brian, my trainer, was so nice to fit me on Tuesday instead of Monday. Damn that sucked, and was intense. Between squats, sit-ups, push ups and ball drops I was DONE. Can't focus on the negatives because I wont go back. So some positives. I made it through 4 minutes of squats, thighs burning like hell. Lol. Sit ups. Now if you follow my blog you will remember my rant a couple weeks ago about not being able to do situps and it was something I was pissed about. Yeah that's right, made it through 4 minutes of sit ups! I was excited to see that improvement, even though my abs pretty much hate me right now. Push ups I made it through and then finally the ball drops. That ball got so heavy over the 4 minutes I wanted to cry. I did it. I made it through.
One thing I can always count on is having a unique workout each time I go. The other aspect that I love is that I am constantly working out all parts of my body, regardless of the fact that I can barely move them now.
Oh well, no pain no gain or in my case no loss. Time to cook some dinner, shower, and hang out with Pax until I fall asleep which I predict is not far in my future.
Thanks for reading and coming along this journey with me.
Oh yeah- weight update. I am at 218. In January I was 239 and Saturday I was 218. I have lost 15 pounds since I started this blog in June and have been working with Brian. 65 pounds total to go. However there is one more exciting thing in the 218. I am 18 pounds from breaking 200. I have not weighed below 200 pounds since the 5th grade. 18 more pounds until my first big hurdle... I cannot wait!!!!
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Cookies Finally Seeing Cookies
So an update. I have been going through some things personally that have been overlapping into aspects of my life I love. I don't want to go into details but I need to remember I live my life everyday for myself, my family, and my friends. Your no better off than the ones that support you the most. Just a slump I need to push through for my own well being.
I made a decision about 5 weeks ago to change my life, for me, for the better. I love and support those around me but I'm not doing this for them or for anyone. Its my daily decision to work hard and then take me time to work on myself. Not only have I made a diet change or a workout change. I have made a lifestyle change to better myself. For the last 5 or so weeks I have been happy. I am working out, getting healthy, and really embracing life. I can't focus on one negative because I feel like I'm cheating myself out of living for today.
Tonight was training and wasn't that motivated but it was routine to change after work and head to the gym. One thing I will take away from tonight is focusing on this fact that I want to succeed and those helping and supporting me want me to succeed. Thank god I wasn't climbing a rope or walking around with a 50 pound sand bag but tonight's workout was focused on key areas and paying attention to form, reps and the overall well being of each exercise.
Through all this I was able to stare in the mirror ( the awful mirrors I hate to stare in) but saw a reflection different than I have before. I saw myself determined to do well and push myself harder while focusing on form and doing it right each time. In the mirror I always saw an overweight person looking to attempt to do something. Today I saw me as I am happy to be in perfect form and focusing on my weaknesses. I have been working on squat form the ensure weight on my heels and my back curved correctly and my neck in the right position. When Brian told me my form was excellent and he's really seeing my improvement and excited to see the progress I have made, really lit something inside of me.
No longer am I looking in the mirror ashamed of what I see or thinking about what I will see, but seeing me. If I don't see myself as I am how do I expect anyone else to. You can't live life looking in the past or always what could be. This is who I am and loving it.
Kinda sappy and short blog tonight but I just thought I would share. Hope you enjoy! To those who have commented or text me or facebpoked me I really appreciate your support. It's really touching to see how me finally focusing on me has inspired others to do the same in their own life.
Happy blogging!
I made a decision about 5 weeks ago to change my life, for me, for the better. I love and support those around me but I'm not doing this for them or for anyone. Its my daily decision to work hard and then take me time to work on myself. Not only have I made a diet change or a workout change. I have made a lifestyle change to better myself. For the last 5 or so weeks I have been happy. I am working out, getting healthy, and really embracing life. I can't focus on one negative because I feel like I'm cheating myself out of living for today.
Tonight was training and wasn't that motivated but it was routine to change after work and head to the gym. One thing I will take away from tonight is focusing on this fact that I want to succeed and those helping and supporting me want me to succeed. Thank god I wasn't climbing a rope or walking around with a 50 pound sand bag but tonight's workout was focused on key areas and paying attention to form, reps and the overall well being of each exercise.
Through all this I was able to stare in the mirror ( the awful mirrors I hate to stare in) but saw a reflection different than I have before. I saw myself determined to do well and push myself harder while focusing on form and doing it right each time. In the mirror I always saw an overweight person looking to attempt to do something. Today I saw me as I am happy to be in perfect form and focusing on my weaknesses. I have been working on squat form the ensure weight on my heels and my back curved correctly and my neck in the right position. When Brian told me my form was excellent and he's really seeing my improvement and excited to see the progress I have made, really lit something inside of me.
No longer am I looking in the mirror ashamed of what I see or thinking about what I will see, but seeing me. If I don't see myself as I am how do I expect anyone else to. You can't live life looking in the past or always what could be. This is who I am and loving it.
Kinda sappy and short blog tonight but I just thought I would share. Hope you enjoy! To those who have commented or text me or facebpoked me I really appreciate your support. It's really touching to see how me finally focusing on me has inspired others to do the same in their own life.
Happy blogging!
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Cookies Are A Changing!
So today was a good day. Got up and me and Tina went to the gym. It's nice to have someone to go with and lee each other motivated. Our intent was to go to ABC (abs butt and core) however it was cancelled. We were told we could stay in the room to do a workout ourselves.
So after so much training with Brian and taking the class a lot we came up with a routine of exercises to do. It was great! It was so nice to be able to use all the equipment and just have fun! We ended up working out just short of an hour and both of us were pouring sweat by the end of it.
There were two great things that happened today. The first one and the big one.. I weighed in before Brian or Tina got there. I was nervous, I want to see the pounds come off but I'm trying to focus more on my overall wellness and fitness. I want to see myself push forward and be able to do things I couldn't do before and to be able to do them longer. Well I have lost four pounds!!! I'm so excited. Not only for the loss but I was able to hold full plank for 1 minute straight and I have always either dropped to my knees or took a break. It was great! The next goal for full plank is two minutes. That's what I'm talking about. Being able to push myself physically and just have a healthier lifestyle and improve my overall wellness.
I know each week I'm not going to lose that and plus I haven't weighed since before New York. I am on pace to losing just under 2 pounds a week. For me that's great. That's sustainable and the healthy way to lose without it coming back.
The other success point today is I am finally comfortable in shorts, in public. If you know me at all I never wear shorts and never have. I have always felt uncomfortable and would rather sweat my butt off than show my thighs. Today I wore shorts to the gym and to the grocery store after and felt great! It's the changes I am seeing in my body that is making me more excited than the pounds lost! Even though they go together :)
Well another good day, another good tale, and another good accomplishment! Moving forward with the new diet and the ever changing new me:)
Happy cookies !!!
So after so much training with Brian and taking the class a lot we came up with a routine of exercises to do. It was great! It was so nice to be able to use all the equipment and just have fun! We ended up working out just short of an hour and both of us were pouring sweat by the end of it.
There were two great things that happened today. The first one and the big one.. I weighed in before Brian or Tina got there. I was nervous, I want to see the pounds come off but I'm trying to focus more on my overall wellness and fitness. I want to see myself push forward and be able to do things I couldn't do before and to be able to do them longer. Well I have lost four pounds!!! I'm so excited. Not only for the loss but I was able to hold full plank for 1 minute straight and I have always either dropped to my knees or took a break. It was great! The next goal for full plank is two minutes. That's what I'm talking about. Being able to push myself physically and just have a healthier lifestyle and improve my overall wellness.
I know each week I'm not going to lose that and plus I haven't weighed since before New York. I am on pace to losing just under 2 pounds a week. For me that's great. That's sustainable and the healthy way to lose without it coming back.
The other success point today is I am finally comfortable in shorts, in public. If you know me at all I never wear shorts and never have. I have always felt uncomfortable and would rather sweat my butt off than show my thighs. Today I wore shorts to the gym and to the grocery store after and felt great! It's the changes I am seeing in my body that is making me more excited than the pounds lost! Even though they go together :)
Well another good day, another good tale, and another good accomplishment! Moving forward with the new diet and the ever changing new me:)
Happy cookies !!!
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Oh My Cookies!
Hey guys!!! I know it's been awhile since I have blogged. So sorry between work and traveling I have been a mess! I'm so glad to be home and back in my routine :)
After being on the road it was hard to keep to the diet and work outs. I did go kayaking with a good friend in Cleveland which was a great workout and great time! Cleveland was a good trip. Ended up learning more about myself and that place is no longer home. It's sad but good. I have finally made south Carolina and Greenville my home.
So the oh my cookies! I came back hit the ground running Monday with a night of training. Tina was there to workout with me and Brian! She did great, I was pouring sweat and she was right there pushing through and supporting me!
So the new diet started today. I was so excited to have string cheese! Finally no more dried tuna. Lots o chicken and protein here I come!!! I challenged myself on a whole new level tonight.
Everything Brian buys a new toy for the gym I secretly think how he can't torture me while working out. Tonight- 50 pound sand bag with handles. I knew I should have taken Matt's advice and run! So five minutes in and I'm pouring sweat! I was difficult but I pushed through. The last segment on the treadmill carrying this thing made me want to fall over. I made the stupid mistake of saying I'd rather do plank. So instead of jumping jacks or whatever he was thinking I did plank!
Ahhhh!!! Well the good news :) I lasted longer in full plank than I have before even half way through the workout! It was great. I'm really starting to see my strength and endurance increase even though I have not weighed in in at least three weeks. It's no longer just about to pounds but endurance, strength and long term health.
Super excited to push myself further:$ tomorrow is treadmill and running! Wish me luck bloggers because right now I'm exhausted and have to make chicken for lunch tomorrow!
Happy workouts = happy people!!!
After being on the road it was hard to keep to the diet and work outs. I did go kayaking with a good friend in Cleveland which was a great workout and great time! Cleveland was a good trip. Ended up learning more about myself and that place is no longer home. It's sad but good. I have finally made south Carolina and Greenville my home.
So the oh my cookies! I came back hit the ground running Monday with a night of training. Tina was there to workout with me and Brian! She did great, I was pouring sweat and she was right there pushing through and supporting me!
So the new diet started today. I was so excited to have string cheese! Finally no more dried tuna. Lots o chicken and protein here I come!!! I challenged myself on a whole new level tonight.
Everything Brian buys a new toy for the gym I secretly think how he can't torture me while working out. Tonight- 50 pound sand bag with handles. I knew I should have taken Matt's advice and run! So five minutes in and I'm pouring sweat! I was difficult but I pushed through. The last segment on the treadmill carrying this thing made me want to fall over. I made the stupid mistake of saying I'd rather do plank. So instead of jumping jacks or whatever he was thinking I did plank!
Ahhhh!!! Well the good news :) I lasted longer in full plank than I have before even half way through the workout! It was great. I'm really starting to see my strength and endurance increase even though I have not weighed in in at least three weeks. It's no longer just about to pounds but endurance, strength and long term health.
Super excited to push myself further:$ tomorrow is treadmill and running! Wish me luck bloggers because right now I'm exhausted and have to make chicken for lunch tomorrow!
Happy workouts = happy people!!!
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