Thursday, October 4, 2012
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Cookies Get Muddy!
So here we go! Frid night I get a call asking me to join a mud run team for Saturday morning. I have been thinking about it and then with help from my trainer Brian and others around me I decided to do it. I was nervous. I had never done one before or even know what was involved. So therefore, I didnt want to be the big fat fatty that couldn't do it. I got over that. I figured I have dropped weight, inches, training regularly, and just an overhaul improved health and well-being. I figured they knew what I look like they know I am working to lose weight and better myself.
It was AMAZING. I had so much fun. Of course there were obstacles I couldn't physcially get myself over and others that terrifed me to death with heights. I supported my team and helped them and we all worked together. It was a blast. I want to do it again in the Spring and hopefully get through more than I did this time! It was so great as you were finishing the last couple obstacles in the main area, people are cheering you on to finish!
So here we are all nice and clean before the race. Our team was the birds, since we are not from South Carolina, we flew in! lol...
There are tons of photos on my Facebook from the whole event. I am bruised from my arms to my toes. I think I broke my big toe. I didn't care though. It was the best experience and I cant wait to do it again :)
Today was back at it. I didn't workout last night and felt guilty. I iced my foot instead. Today I did thrusters. Lots and lots of thrusters! Im back in my routine and the Mud Run only energized me to do more and push through!
Things are going great for me in every aspect. Tomrrow October 3rd, will be two months no smoking. The last time I smoked a cigarette was two months ago today. I cant believe how much I have improved my health and really put myself first.
Minus the goofy ass smile on my face, but my reward continues to be my success. For the first time in my life I am wearing a medium size t-shirt. It's not really about the pounds, its about the fitness, and I am really starting to see that. The goal is wellness and fitness not a number.
Pintrest Crossfit Quote of the Blog:
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Cookies Go Big!
So tonight felt great! I don't normally train on Tuesdays but it was a nice change :) Tonight the rain cleared by the time it was gym time. So we worked out outside! Below 80 degrees.... Ill take it!
I wasn't neverous and kept telling myself you can do this. You have done this for the last 9 weeks keep going you got this. Plus now Im addicted to Crossfit on Pintrest. That extra motivation always helps :)
Well Brian had a simple one planned for tonight. Not easy but simple. Rowing and wall balls. Thats it. Five rounds. Ended up rowing around 1500 meters and did like 150 wall balls. Yeah my thighs will hate me... oh well! Smaller thighs for me :) Half-way through all I wanted was quit. Then I thought to myself don't give up. Why are you putting up excuses... just bear down pull that damn bar and get that round of rowing done!! Brian of course was there to support and encourage me!
In my slump Brian understood, didn't judge or get mad just pushed me through. Tonight was a great workout. I need to stay on track. I really enjoy these workouts. Whether its the idea of actually finishing them, knowing how much further I pushed myself... Im becoming a Crossfit junkie! lol.....
So Pintrest has been my extra motivation the last couple days to go back big with my training. Here are some of my favorites! You can always follow me on Pintrest!
I wasn't neverous and kept telling myself you can do this. You have done this for the last 9 weeks keep going you got this. Plus now Im addicted to Crossfit on Pintrest. That extra motivation always helps :)
Well Brian had a simple one planned for tonight. Not easy but simple. Rowing and wall balls. Thats it. Five rounds. Ended up rowing around 1500 meters and did like 150 wall balls. Yeah my thighs will hate me... oh well! Smaller thighs for me :) Half-way through all I wanted was quit. Then I thought to myself don't give up. Why are you putting up excuses... just bear down pull that damn bar and get that round of rowing done!! Brian of course was there to support and encourage me!
So Pintrest has been my extra motivation the last couple days to go back big with my training. Here are some of my favorites! You can always follow me on Pintrest!
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Cookies Checking In
So it has been awhile since I have blogged. I got away fro it because I just have not been excited about my workouts, my diet, or really anything :(
But I'm back! After working through somethings as well as refocusing I am back. My workouts were tough, I wasn't feeling great during them and the excuses came out. I can't do box jumps. I want to I just don't have the confidence to jump that high... I keep feeling like I'm going to fall flat on my face. I need to work on them with and without Brian. I need to build my confidence.
I went running yesterday. I do an interval running program that I love. I enjoy running outside rather than on the treadmill. It makes me feel like I am actually accomplishing something. On the treadmill I get bored. It was so fun to just run down Batesville road with the wind and the scenery. It's finally starting to cool off here where I don't have to run before 10 am. We all know I love my sleep. That was a workout for me. To run, feel accomplished, and clear my head. I need to make sure I am doing this for me. My motivation went away because I began to not care that I was doing this for me.
I spent some time looking through Crossfit on Pintrest and just heatlh, fitness, and motivation itself. Its a nive reminder. Every day I do something, is better than nothing. If I have a good workout, tomorrow's need to be better and then best! To me the pounds are important. I want to hit a goal weight number. However, I drove myself nuts over the pounds and that's what began to deter me. So my goal is fitness. I want to be able to run further without wanting to stop. I want to do box jumps and not fear falling on my face. I want to get through my Crossfit workouts without feeling like im going to throw up. I want to get through the tough ones and be like yes that was awesome! I dont want to feel OMG kill me. The only way I will is to do this for me. To keep going and to keep pushing.
Health and wellness is not a destination but a lifestyle. I have already changed y lifestyle so much to achieve this. I have not smoked a cigarette since August 2nd. I don't drink on a daily basis or even weekly. Before, it was pretty much daily. I don't eat fast food, lots of starches or carbs, and no longer binge on food. I eat with stability. Normal portion sizes. I eat lean protein, vegetables, some fruit, a few starches and stay away from sugar.
To continue- workout at 5 am tomorrow! Tomorrow morning is cardio where tomorrow I will train with Brian. We will see what workout he plans for me. I will embrace it, be excited about it, know that it will NOT kill me and I CAN make it through. If I remind myself the more I procrastinate the longer it lasts, I can push through and just get it done. I have never felt so horrible after a workout I regretted it. I have gone home after not working out and felt guilty for not going.
Favorite quote found on Pintrest today: "Because today is another chance to get it right"
But I'm back! After working through somethings as well as refocusing I am back. My workouts were tough, I wasn't feeling great during them and the excuses came out. I can't do box jumps. I want to I just don't have the confidence to jump that high... I keep feeling like I'm going to fall flat on my face. I need to work on them with and without Brian. I need to build my confidence.
I went running yesterday. I do an interval running program that I love. I enjoy running outside rather than on the treadmill. It makes me feel like I am actually accomplishing something. On the treadmill I get bored. It was so fun to just run down Batesville road with the wind and the scenery. It's finally starting to cool off here where I don't have to run before 10 am. We all know I love my sleep. That was a workout for me. To run, feel accomplished, and clear my head. I need to make sure I am doing this for me. My motivation went away because I began to not care that I was doing this for me.
I spent some time looking through Crossfit on Pintrest and just heatlh, fitness, and motivation itself. Its a nive reminder. Every day I do something, is better than nothing. If I have a good workout, tomorrow's need to be better and then best! To me the pounds are important. I want to hit a goal weight number. However, I drove myself nuts over the pounds and that's what began to deter me. So my goal is fitness. I want to be able to run further without wanting to stop. I want to do box jumps and not fear falling on my face. I want to get through my Crossfit workouts without feeling like im going to throw up. I want to get through the tough ones and be like yes that was awesome! I dont want to feel OMG kill me. The only way I will is to do this for me. To keep going and to keep pushing.
Health and wellness is not a destination but a lifestyle. I have already changed y lifestyle so much to achieve this. I have not smoked a cigarette since August 2nd. I don't drink on a daily basis or even weekly. Before, it was pretty much daily. I don't eat fast food, lots of starches or carbs, and no longer binge on food. I eat with stability. Normal portion sizes. I eat lean protein, vegetables, some fruit, a few starches and stay away from sugar.
To continue- workout at 5 am tomorrow! Tomorrow morning is cardio where tomorrow I will train with Brian. We will see what workout he plans for me. I will embrace it, be excited about it, know that it will NOT kill me and I CAN make it through. If I remind myself the more I procrastinate the longer it lasts, I can push through and just get it done. I have never felt so horrible after a workout I regretted it. I have gone home after not working out and felt guilty for not going.
Favorite quote found on Pintrest today: "Because today is another chance to get it right"
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Cookies Exhausted
Well I weighed in. I gained two pounds. I am beating myself up about it. The excuses are as follows:
- I quit smoking
- I cheated on my diet
- I slacked in my gym routines
- Stress with work
Oh well. I cant be perfect. I accepted my gain and realized its not worth it. Its not worth it to cheat to lose progress going forward. That's stupid. Lol. I don't want to have to resort to burpies! I hate them!
Monday I started back, harder than ever. I did a 5 am workout on Monday, and evening workout on Tuesday, another evening workout tonight and Im debating the next two days. With all the other crap in my life, Im exhausted! I haven't slept in days and panic attacks are kicking in.
Im not going to let that stop me. I had a panic attack tonight on the threadmill, well this new treadmill the gym bought. But I just stopped got my breathing under control, paused and then started back. I know this has been a whirlwind but I need to be able to handle anything thrown at me. Im working on these panic attacks.
I have stuck to my diet since it was given Monday night. I have drank more protein than ever! In fact that is all I had today excpet 4 eggs this morning! Oh another thing I learned. Yoplait light, almond milk and protein- so good! I can finally eat yogurt. I have always hated the smell, the taste, and it just made me sick to think about it. Well if you want to lose weight you have to eat for fit not for fun. I think I am finally moving past the whole notion of enjoying the flavor and a variety of foods. For now, its just ok for the goal I am working towards and thats ok. When I do hit my goal and return to a normal diet, those will be luxuries in moderation where I don't blow up to a blimp again.
Well, Im off to take some melatonin and hopefully sleep tonight. On a sad note I will not be going to ABR Weekend this year :( Go Team Redmond! Its probably a good thing- a weekend full of drinking and eating is probably not what I need. Oh those ribs... lol.... it is the rib cook off.. Oh well love my friends and family and will miss yall this year, but will definitely be there next year for year 13!
Cookies cooling off
- I quit smoking
- I cheated on my diet
- I slacked in my gym routines
- Stress with work
Oh well. I cant be perfect. I accepted my gain and realized its not worth it. Its not worth it to cheat to lose progress going forward. That's stupid. Lol. I don't want to have to resort to burpies! I hate them!
Monday I started back, harder than ever. I did a 5 am workout on Monday, and evening workout on Tuesday, another evening workout tonight and Im debating the next two days. With all the other crap in my life, Im exhausted! I haven't slept in days and panic attacks are kicking in.
Im not going to let that stop me. I had a panic attack tonight on the threadmill, well this new treadmill the gym bought. But I just stopped got my breathing under control, paused and then started back. I know this has been a whirlwind but I need to be able to handle anything thrown at me. Im working on these panic attacks.
I have stuck to my diet since it was given Monday night. I have drank more protein than ever! In fact that is all I had today excpet 4 eggs this morning! Oh another thing I learned. Yoplait light, almond milk and protein- so good! I can finally eat yogurt. I have always hated the smell, the taste, and it just made me sick to think about it. Well if you want to lose weight you have to eat for fit not for fun. I think I am finally moving past the whole notion of enjoying the flavor and a variety of foods. For now, its just ok for the goal I am working towards and thats ok. When I do hit my goal and return to a normal diet, those will be luxuries in moderation where I don't blow up to a blimp again.
Well, Im off to take some melatonin and hopefully sleep tonight. On a sad note I will not be going to ABR Weekend this year :( Go Team Redmond! Its probably a good thing- a weekend full of drinking and eating is probably not what I need. Oh those ribs... lol.... it is the rib cook off.. Oh well love my friends and family and will miss yall this year, but will definitely be there next year for year 13!
Cookies cooling off
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Cookies Crumble Again
Well the one thing I have said from the beginning is that I was going to be completely honest. Well, honestly, I suck. Over the last 3-4 weeks I have failed. I have dropped off my diet, have not stuck to my exercise plan 110%, and just let myself, my trainer and everyone else down, even if they don't know it.
Over the last couple weeks I have let other influences get in the way. I know I need to do this for me and only I can do this. I need to recommit myself 110% again. I need to stick to the diet perfectly, and get my ass in the gym at least six days a week. I need to increase my cardio sessions and push myself harder in training. I have been lazy and getting frustrated and hiding it through eating. Yes eating.
I always have vented through food. Emotional eating. Whether I was happy, frustrated, pissed or excited. All of it relates to food. I have always remembered overeating, eating when I was bored, and just eating. I like eating. But what I never let myself realize is that I cannot eat just to eat. I would hide food, or eat really fast so no one would find me eating it. That all needs to change. I need to focus on eating for health and not eating to eat. Food gives you energy to lose the weight. I cant continue like this. My goal for this month was 18 pounds and now I have gained two. That's why I havent been on here. I was not excited to write or happy about what I should be writing. That's all changing.
I obviously have the will power to do this, as long as I keep myself focused. I have completely changed my life in the last 9 weeks. I have dramatically cut back on drinking, changed my entire diet (minus the recent cheating), started an intense workout routine, and quit smoking cold turkey. I do give myself credit for all that has changed but I also hate myself for what I have done the last couple weeks to basically sabotage the success I have had.
I have researched emotional eating as well as focusing methods. So from now on starting tomorrow morning, I will record everything. I will record each time I eat, how much I eat, and how hungry I was before and after. This way over time I can monitor how hungry I was compared to the amount of food I ate. Overeating and not stopping when full is one of my biggest issues. Shouldn't be a problem with portion control on my diet but I need to almost be obsessed I feel. I need to keep myself more honest. At least Ill be able to look back and see I did not over eat I did not cheat and here is the proof.
I will also be recording each workout, the length, and what occurred. My training I will not be sharing all the details as that's not fair to my trainer to just put it out there for all to see and use. If I take the next 6-9 weeks to just focus on eating correctly and working out correctly, it will lead to the break of 200. Again that is my first major goal and essentially my halfway point for me.
Well now that I have shared the crumbles, I am off to relax watch some tv and then get ready for my 5 am cardio workout tomorrow.
I hope no one stops reading because of my recent failure, however, no one is perfect and at least im honest about it.
Over the last couple weeks I have let other influences get in the way. I know I need to do this for me and only I can do this. I need to recommit myself 110% again. I need to stick to the diet perfectly, and get my ass in the gym at least six days a week. I need to increase my cardio sessions and push myself harder in training. I have been lazy and getting frustrated and hiding it through eating. Yes eating.
I always have vented through food. Emotional eating. Whether I was happy, frustrated, pissed or excited. All of it relates to food. I have always remembered overeating, eating when I was bored, and just eating. I like eating. But what I never let myself realize is that I cannot eat just to eat. I would hide food, or eat really fast so no one would find me eating it. That all needs to change. I need to focus on eating for health and not eating to eat. Food gives you energy to lose the weight. I cant continue like this. My goal for this month was 18 pounds and now I have gained two. That's why I havent been on here. I was not excited to write or happy about what I should be writing. That's all changing.
I obviously have the will power to do this, as long as I keep myself focused. I have completely changed my life in the last 9 weeks. I have dramatically cut back on drinking, changed my entire diet (minus the recent cheating), started an intense workout routine, and quit smoking cold turkey. I do give myself credit for all that has changed but I also hate myself for what I have done the last couple weeks to basically sabotage the success I have had.
I have researched emotional eating as well as focusing methods. So from now on starting tomorrow morning, I will record everything. I will record each time I eat, how much I eat, and how hungry I was before and after. This way over time I can monitor how hungry I was compared to the amount of food I ate. Overeating and not stopping when full is one of my biggest issues. Shouldn't be a problem with portion control on my diet but I need to almost be obsessed I feel. I need to keep myself more honest. At least Ill be able to look back and see I did not over eat I did not cheat and here is the proof.
I will also be recording each workout, the length, and what occurred. My training I will not be sharing all the details as that's not fair to my trainer to just put it out there for all to see and use. If I take the next 6-9 weeks to just focus on eating correctly and working out correctly, it will lead to the break of 200. Again that is my first major goal and essentially my halfway point for me.
Well now that I have shared the crumbles, I am off to relax watch some tv and then get ready for my 5 am cardio workout tomorrow.
I hope no one stops reading because of my recent failure, however, no one is perfect and at least im honest about it.
Monday, August 6, 2012
Cookies Count 1-2-3 5-10-15
1. I ran my first 5k on Saturday!!! It was great! I didn't run nearly as long as I wanted to but I ran with Trish and just kept going! My biggest problem was breathing. I didn't know the right way to breathe and so I spent more time pacing my breathing than focusing on the run. That was a nice distraction. Just after passing Nile marker two, a woman near us said don't focus on how much further you have to go but shorter distances. One great and immensely helpful distance was tree to tree. As long as I kept focusing on the next tree I wasn't realizing now long I was running or the distance , just kept going. All the way to the finish where my sister was and took this wonderful picture!!!
(since I'm doing this on my phone don't know where the pic is going to show!!)
Afterwards I decided my shoes suck and went shopping with mom. We went over by the mall and found the Greenville Running Company. I know good running shoes makes all the difference! I got new shoes found them as soon as I pulled up, they had my size (which is rare with my big feet) and they were on sale! It was heaven and they feel like heaven when I'm running in them! Here they are!!
2. My second run was with my sister on Sunday. I know I already ran the 5k but not the best. So we are running the couch to 5k program to get better and I can build stamina to running. It was so much fun to just go running with my sister and for us to push each other through some friendly competition! We had a great run around the Riverside area and I felt great afterwards. I'm assuming she did too as she went running again today :)
3. Well three is how many meals I cheated with this weekend :( First up was the salad on Saturday night at Buffalo Wild Wings( yes it was a salad but buffalo chicken it was 647 calories.) Right now I have not been eating over 1200 calories a day. Sunday broke with a veggie omelette for breakfast at Southern Tymes with Steve and Kristy. I miss that place and it was such a great omelette! Finally was Sunday night at the Drive game. I knew it would happen and it did end up costing me. Weighed in today and gained a pound. It made me realize no matter how tasty the food I must follow the diet and my workouts to reach my goal. My motto has always been go big or go home and I'm not going to stop now!
5. Tomorrow will be five days since I have smoked a cigarette. I think I will always crave one and that feeling inside from smoking one. But if I'm changing my diet, quit drinking, and working out hardcore why would I continue to smoke and hinder my physical health. So I quit and gum has become my new obsession. I kinda feel my want to cigarettes is similar to that of food. I love the flavor of food and the taste of it just as a cigarette. But smoking a pack a day to satisfy that or over eat or eat pizza all the time because it tastes good is just as damaging. So I quit and will stay a non smoker. There was a huge difference tonight. My chest was not hurting and I could breathe!
10. Sits ups I did each round. Tonight was 5-10-15 and rowing. Oh yeah plus my 16 warm up between walking and running and 7 minutes of stretching. So 10. Ten butterfly sit ups each round. The rest of each round included push ups and squats. The hardest part as sit ups. If you have been reading my past entires at all you know I hate sit ups and just over 6-8 weeks ago I couldn't even do one on the floor. After adding it up I did over 135 full proper sit ups tonight. I was proud. I pushed I kept my drive going and did what I could to get through. I thought about the woman from the 5k. Granted I could not count trees because I was on the ground inside a gym, I could make my own goals through each ten. Like I am going to do three nonstop without grabbing my legs. Mini goals within the overall goal helped. Brian kept making fun of me because I kept asking what his goals for me and within what time frame. My awesome math skills allowed me to set smaller goals such as each round shouldn't take me more than 2 minutes or I should be rowing 250meters ever minute. Those mini goals help A LOT!
15. I may only be down 15 pounds ( because I gained) but I can tell physically I have completely changes. Smoking alone has been a huge feat. But within that 15 pounds I have strengthened my core, built up my back, legs and arms. I can push myself physically a lot harder than I could. I know it can't be all about the pounds and the pounds will come in time. I just need to think eat healthy, don't smoke and go big in the gym and the pounds will fall!
This was a long one but haven't blogged in awhile and had a lot to say! Well I must crash now because I'm getting up at 5 to workout before work so after I can play tennis. Hope you enjoyed the read!
Keep sweating:)
(since I'm doing this on my phone don't know where the pic is going to show!!)
Afterwards I decided my shoes suck and went shopping with mom. We went over by the mall and found the Greenville Running Company. I know good running shoes makes all the difference! I got new shoes found them as soon as I pulled up, they had my size (which is rare with my big feet) and they were on sale! It was heaven and they feel like heaven when I'm running in them! Here they are!!
2. My second run was with my sister on Sunday. I know I already ran the 5k but not the best. So we are running the couch to 5k program to get better and I can build stamina to running. It was so much fun to just go running with my sister and for us to push each other through some friendly competition! We had a great run around the Riverside area and I felt great afterwards. I'm assuming she did too as she went running again today :)
3. Well three is how many meals I cheated with this weekend :( First up was the salad on Saturday night at Buffalo Wild Wings( yes it was a salad but buffalo chicken it was 647 calories.) Right now I have not been eating over 1200 calories a day. Sunday broke with a veggie omelette for breakfast at Southern Tymes with Steve and Kristy. I miss that place and it was such a great omelette! Finally was Sunday night at the Drive game. I knew it would happen and it did end up costing me. Weighed in today and gained a pound. It made me realize no matter how tasty the food I must follow the diet and my workouts to reach my goal. My motto has always been go big or go home and I'm not going to stop now!
5. Tomorrow will be five days since I have smoked a cigarette. I think I will always crave one and that feeling inside from smoking one. But if I'm changing my diet, quit drinking, and working out hardcore why would I continue to smoke and hinder my physical health. So I quit and gum has become my new obsession. I kinda feel my want to cigarettes is similar to that of food. I love the flavor of food and the taste of it just as a cigarette. But smoking a pack a day to satisfy that or over eat or eat pizza all the time because it tastes good is just as damaging. So I quit and will stay a non smoker. There was a huge difference tonight. My chest was not hurting and I could breathe!
10. Sits ups I did each round. Tonight was 5-10-15 and rowing. Oh yeah plus my 16 warm up between walking and running and 7 minutes of stretching. So 10. Ten butterfly sit ups each round. The rest of each round included push ups and squats. The hardest part as sit ups. If you have been reading my past entires at all you know I hate sit ups and just over 6-8 weeks ago I couldn't even do one on the floor. After adding it up I did over 135 full proper sit ups tonight. I was proud. I pushed I kept my drive going and did what I could to get through. I thought about the woman from the 5k. Granted I could not count trees because I was on the ground inside a gym, I could make my own goals through each ten. Like I am going to do three nonstop without grabbing my legs. Mini goals within the overall goal helped. Brian kept making fun of me because I kept asking what his goals for me and within what time frame. My awesome math skills allowed me to set smaller goals such as each round shouldn't take me more than 2 minutes or I should be rowing 250meters ever minute. Those mini goals help A LOT!
15. I may only be down 15 pounds ( because I gained) but I can tell physically I have completely changes. Smoking alone has been a huge feat. But within that 15 pounds I have strengthened my core, built up my back, legs and arms. I can push myself physically a lot harder than I could. I know it can't be all about the pounds and the pounds will come in time. I just need to think eat healthy, don't smoke and go big in the gym and the pounds will fall!
This was a long one but haven't blogged in awhile and had a lot to say! Well I must crash now because I'm getting up at 5 to workout before work so after I can play tennis. Hope you enjoyed the read!
Keep sweating:)
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Cookies Crumble... Then Bounce Back
I know its been awhile since I have blogged but I must say this first.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Ok, now that that is out, I can breathe again. So why the cookies crumble. Last weekend fell off the diet a bit and cheated. Felt really guilty and struggled with it for a bit. Then Monday came and I said enough is enough time to get my ass back in the gym and go for it. 18 pounds is my goal for August.
Monday was training with Brian and it was outside. It was around 90 degrees outside. Some cheating has caused me headaches again and I don't think its from not eating because all I do is eat work and gym. I made it three rounds in to bear crawls and lunges before I couldn't breathe, chest hurt, and felt dizzy. I was pissed because I couldn't do it and gave up before I felt like I was going to faint.
Tuesday was cardio to get ready for this weekend. Oh that's right, no one knows. I am running my first ever 5k on Saturday for the fight against child abuse and sexual assault. I am doing it with my mom and I am really excited and trying to prep in under a week.
Today the headache was back but I had my protein and my meals. Going into tonight, Brian asked if I wanted to do the workout from Monday start to finish and I was determined to get through it no matter if it killed me. Well I get there and he decides we are going to stay in because it was still 94 degrees outside and I am guessing he didn't think I was ready for it. I don't know if I was or could have made it through it but the next time he brings it up I will kill it no matter if I throw up afterwards or not.
So the reason for the ahhhhhh! I did my warm of up interval running and lots and lots of stretching. Then I find out we are staying inside. First thing first is we are doing three different things at 30 20 10 and then repeat 4 times. The goal was 20 minutes. I can honestly tell you I did not make that goal. 34 minutes. :( Between the jumps, that stupid medicine ball that I feel has it out for me, and pushups I was huffing and puffing to get through. One of the things I love about Brian is he knows how far to push me before cracking and now has developed a scare tactic to use against me.
Brian's scare tactic against me = burpies. What I refer to as up down hell. I was struggling with form on the medicine ball and just trying to figure out how I should be positioned and doing what Brian seemed to demonstrate as easy. I kept focusing on form. I kept slipping. He started saying you mess this up- BURPIE. So he said he was going to start counting burpies in his head after I did three. Luckily, by the end I did not have to do more. The thought of doing those pushed me through.
One thing I didn't like that held me back was I was having trouble deep breathing and was sweating my ass off. Now I know its from the smoking, but I am going to have to make the decision to finally quit sooner or later. I've tried many times before and failed or only succeeded for a few months. He had good reasoning saying your doing all this work to make yourself healthy and your going to continue to do that. You have to make the decision and soon so you can continue to push yourself further in your workouts.
It took extra motivation and him pushing me to get through it. I have the determination but damn. I felt bad that I wasn't pushing myself hard enough for him, since he was helping me reach my goals. I know I need to not give up on myself and when it hurts push through.
So the crumbling- fall of the diet and lack of pushing myself and the gym. Result- no pounds lost this week thus far. My goal is at least 1 ponds hopefully 2 by Saturday.
The bounce back- I will do this. I will lose 18 more this month. I will complete the 5k on Saturday. I will work to push myself harder in the gym and in my training sessions. I owe it to myself to go big on this and just get healthy once and for all.
Now Im off to watch the Olympics and hopefully sleep because this chick is spent.
Good night!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Ok, now that that is out, I can breathe again. So why the cookies crumble. Last weekend fell off the diet a bit and cheated. Felt really guilty and struggled with it for a bit. Then Monday came and I said enough is enough time to get my ass back in the gym and go for it. 18 pounds is my goal for August.
Monday was training with Brian and it was outside. It was around 90 degrees outside. Some cheating has caused me headaches again and I don't think its from not eating because all I do is eat work and gym. I made it three rounds in to bear crawls and lunges before I couldn't breathe, chest hurt, and felt dizzy. I was pissed because I couldn't do it and gave up before I felt like I was going to faint.
Tuesday was cardio to get ready for this weekend. Oh that's right, no one knows. I am running my first ever 5k on Saturday for the fight against child abuse and sexual assault. I am doing it with my mom and I am really excited and trying to prep in under a week.
Today the headache was back but I had my protein and my meals. Going into tonight, Brian asked if I wanted to do the workout from Monday start to finish and I was determined to get through it no matter if it killed me. Well I get there and he decides we are going to stay in because it was still 94 degrees outside and I am guessing he didn't think I was ready for it. I don't know if I was or could have made it through it but the next time he brings it up I will kill it no matter if I throw up afterwards or not.
So the reason for the ahhhhhh! I did my warm of up interval running and lots and lots of stretching. Then I find out we are staying inside. First thing first is we are doing three different things at 30 20 10 and then repeat 4 times. The goal was 20 minutes. I can honestly tell you I did not make that goal. 34 minutes. :( Between the jumps, that stupid medicine ball that I feel has it out for me, and pushups I was huffing and puffing to get through. One of the things I love about Brian is he knows how far to push me before cracking and now has developed a scare tactic to use against me.
Brian's scare tactic against me = burpies. What I refer to as up down hell. I was struggling with form on the medicine ball and just trying to figure out how I should be positioned and doing what Brian seemed to demonstrate as easy. I kept focusing on form. I kept slipping. He started saying you mess this up- BURPIE. So he said he was going to start counting burpies in his head after I did three. Luckily, by the end I did not have to do more. The thought of doing those pushed me through.
One thing I didn't like that held me back was I was having trouble deep breathing and was sweating my ass off. Now I know its from the smoking, but I am going to have to make the decision to finally quit sooner or later. I've tried many times before and failed or only succeeded for a few months. He had good reasoning saying your doing all this work to make yourself healthy and your going to continue to do that. You have to make the decision and soon so you can continue to push yourself further in your workouts.
It took extra motivation and him pushing me to get through it. I have the determination but damn. I felt bad that I wasn't pushing myself hard enough for him, since he was helping me reach my goals. I know I need to not give up on myself and when it hurts push through.
So the crumbling- fall of the diet and lack of pushing myself and the gym. Result- no pounds lost this week thus far. My goal is at least 1 ponds hopefully 2 by Saturday.
The bounce back- I will do this. I will lose 18 more this month. I will complete the 5k on Saturday. I will work to push myself harder in the gym and in my training sessions. I owe it to myself to go big on this and just get healthy once and for all.
Now Im off to watch the Olympics and hopefully sleep because this chick is spent.
Good night!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Oh Cookies, The Journey Goes On
Well its the start of another week. Well it should have been yesterday, however, I ended up with heat exhaustion or a heat stroke from Sunday. To rewind, I ran errands all day Saturday, then laid by the pool with mom. After some nice R & R, I hit the gym. I didnt want to go but I knew I would feel better after I went so I did. Out of blue I felt like weighing myself. ANOTHER 3 POUNDS! YAY! I was so excited I put in an extra hard workout and felt great. After hanging out with family and friends I decided it was time for me to crash.
Sunday I got up and had my turkey bacon, green tea, and multi-grain waffle. Im really beginning to enjoy this breakfast I get once a week :) I then hit the courts to play some tennis with a friend. It felt great being out there and playing. I was sweating like crazy, which if you know me, I sweat .... all the time. After that it was time to hit the pool to cool off. Once thing I didn't realize was even though I wasn't sweating and enjoying the pool, I was not hydrating as much as I was sweating. I decided to leave family dinner early because I was tired. I didn't get my Sunday nap, so nothing out of the ordinary. That's until I got home and starting having hot and cold sweats on top of dry heaving and a massive headache. Mom and Brian did some digging and voila- heat exhaustion.
Unfortunately I woke up Monday even worse. I couldn't even move. Luckily I was able to stay home, sleep, and hydrate all day. I slept more yesterday that I have in months. Which is really shocking, but damn did I need rest.
I head back to work today and hit it hard. The end of the month is coming and being out yesterday I had work to do. Slowly through the day I was feeling better and still riding out of the high of my three pounds. That was until I got to the gym. LOL Just kidding.
I was excited to work out again. Its finally showing all my hard work. Brian, my trainer, was so nice to fit me on Tuesday instead of Monday. Damn that sucked, and was intense. Between squats, sit-ups, push ups and ball drops I was DONE. Can't focus on the negatives because I wont go back. So some positives. I made it through 4 minutes of squats, thighs burning like hell. Lol. Sit ups. Now if you follow my blog you will remember my rant a couple weeks ago about not being able to do situps and it was something I was pissed about. Yeah that's right, made it through 4 minutes of sit ups! I was excited to see that improvement, even though my abs pretty much hate me right now. Push ups I made it through and then finally the ball drops. That ball got so heavy over the 4 minutes I wanted to cry. I did it. I made it through.
One thing I can always count on is having a unique workout each time I go. The other aspect that I love is that I am constantly working out all parts of my body, regardless of the fact that I can barely move them now.
Oh well, no pain no gain or in my case no loss. Time to cook some dinner, shower, and hang out with Pax until I fall asleep which I predict is not far in my future.
Thanks for reading and coming along this journey with me.
Oh yeah- weight update. I am at 218. In January I was 239 and Saturday I was 218. I have lost 15 pounds since I started this blog in June and have been working with Brian. 65 pounds total to go. However there is one more exciting thing in the 218. I am 18 pounds from breaking 200. I have not weighed below 200 pounds since the 5th grade. 18 more pounds until my first big hurdle... I cannot wait!!!!
Sunday I got up and had my turkey bacon, green tea, and multi-grain waffle. Im really beginning to enjoy this breakfast I get once a week :) I then hit the courts to play some tennis with a friend. It felt great being out there and playing. I was sweating like crazy, which if you know me, I sweat .... all the time. After that it was time to hit the pool to cool off. Once thing I didn't realize was even though I wasn't sweating and enjoying the pool, I was not hydrating as much as I was sweating. I decided to leave family dinner early because I was tired. I didn't get my Sunday nap, so nothing out of the ordinary. That's until I got home and starting having hot and cold sweats on top of dry heaving and a massive headache. Mom and Brian did some digging and voila- heat exhaustion.
Unfortunately I woke up Monday even worse. I couldn't even move. Luckily I was able to stay home, sleep, and hydrate all day. I slept more yesterday that I have in months. Which is really shocking, but damn did I need rest.
I head back to work today and hit it hard. The end of the month is coming and being out yesterday I had work to do. Slowly through the day I was feeling better and still riding out of the high of my three pounds. That was until I got to the gym. LOL Just kidding.
I was excited to work out again. Its finally showing all my hard work. Brian, my trainer, was so nice to fit me on Tuesday instead of Monday. Damn that sucked, and was intense. Between squats, sit-ups, push ups and ball drops I was DONE. Can't focus on the negatives because I wont go back. So some positives. I made it through 4 minutes of squats, thighs burning like hell. Lol. Sit ups. Now if you follow my blog you will remember my rant a couple weeks ago about not being able to do situps and it was something I was pissed about. Yeah that's right, made it through 4 minutes of sit ups! I was excited to see that improvement, even though my abs pretty much hate me right now. Push ups I made it through and then finally the ball drops. That ball got so heavy over the 4 minutes I wanted to cry. I did it. I made it through.
One thing I can always count on is having a unique workout each time I go. The other aspect that I love is that I am constantly working out all parts of my body, regardless of the fact that I can barely move them now.
Oh well, no pain no gain or in my case no loss. Time to cook some dinner, shower, and hang out with Pax until I fall asleep which I predict is not far in my future.
Thanks for reading and coming along this journey with me.
Oh yeah- weight update. I am at 218. In January I was 239 and Saturday I was 218. I have lost 15 pounds since I started this blog in June and have been working with Brian. 65 pounds total to go. However there is one more exciting thing in the 218. I am 18 pounds from breaking 200. I have not weighed below 200 pounds since the 5th grade. 18 more pounds until my first big hurdle... I cannot wait!!!!
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Cookies Finally Seeing Cookies
So an update. I have been going through some things personally that have been overlapping into aspects of my life I love. I don't want to go into details but I need to remember I live my life everyday for myself, my family, and my friends. Your no better off than the ones that support you the most. Just a slump I need to push through for my own well being.
I made a decision about 5 weeks ago to change my life, for me, for the better. I love and support those around me but I'm not doing this for them or for anyone. Its my daily decision to work hard and then take me time to work on myself. Not only have I made a diet change or a workout change. I have made a lifestyle change to better myself. For the last 5 or so weeks I have been happy. I am working out, getting healthy, and really embracing life. I can't focus on one negative because I feel like I'm cheating myself out of living for today.
Tonight was training and wasn't that motivated but it was routine to change after work and head to the gym. One thing I will take away from tonight is focusing on this fact that I want to succeed and those helping and supporting me want me to succeed. Thank god I wasn't climbing a rope or walking around with a 50 pound sand bag but tonight's workout was focused on key areas and paying attention to form, reps and the overall well being of each exercise.
Through all this I was able to stare in the mirror ( the awful mirrors I hate to stare in) but saw a reflection different than I have before. I saw myself determined to do well and push myself harder while focusing on form and doing it right each time. In the mirror I always saw an overweight person looking to attempt to do something. Today I saw me as I am happy to be in perfect form and focusing on my weaknesses. I have been working on squat form the ensure weight on my heels and my back curved correctly and my neck in the right position. When Brian told me my form was excellent and he's really seeing my improvement and excited to see the progress I have made, really lit something inside of me.
No longer am I looking in the mirror ashamed of what I see or thinking about what I will see, but seeing me. If I don't see myself as I am how do I expect anyone else to. You can't live life looking in the past or always what could be. This is who I am and loving it.
Kinda sappy and short blog tonight but I just thought I would share. Hope you enjoy! To those who have commented or text me or facebpoked me I really appreciate your support. It's really touching to see how me finally focusing on me has inspired others to do the same in their own life.
Happy blogging!
I made a decision about 5 weeks ago to change my life, for me, for the better. I love and support those around me but I'm not doing this for them or for anyone. Its my daily decision to work hard and then take me time to work on myself. Not only have I made a diet change or a workout change. I have made a lifestyle change to better myself. For the last 5 or so weeks I have been happy. I am working out, getting healthy, and really embracing life. I can't focus on one negative because I feel like I'm cheating myself out of living for today.
Tonight was training and wasn't that motivated but it was routine to change after work and head to the gym. One thing I will take away from tonight is focusing on this fact that I want to succeed and those helping and supporting me want me to succeed. Thank god I wasn't climbing a rope or walking around with a 50 pound sand bag but tonight's workout was focused on key areas and paying attention to form, reps and the overall well being of each exercise.
Through all this I was able to stare in the mirror ( the awful mirrors I hate to stare in) but saw a reflection different than I have before. I saw myself determined to do well and push myself harder while focusing on form and doing it right each time. In the mirror I always saw an overweight person looking to attempt to do something. Today I saw me as I am happy to be in perfect form and focusing on my weaknesses. I have been working on squat form the ensure weight on my heels and my back curved correctly and my neck in the right position. When Brian told me my form was excellent and he's really seeing my improvement and excited to see the progress I have made, really lit something inside of me.
No longer am I looking in the mirror ashamed of what I see or thinking about what I will see, but seeing me. If I don't see myself as I am how do I expect anyone else to. You can't live life looking in the past or always what could be. This is who I am and loving it.
Kinda sappy and short blog tonight but I just thought I would share. Hope you enjoy! To those who have commented or text me or facebpoked me I really appreciate your support. It's really touching to see how me finally focusing on me has inspired others to do the same in their own life.
Happy blogging!
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Cookies Are A Changing!
So today was a good day. Got up and me and Tina went to the gym. It's nice to have someone to go with and lee each other motivated. Our intent was to go to ABC (abs butt and core) however it was cancelled. We were told we could stay in the room to do a workout ourselves.
So after so much training with Brian and taking the class a lot we came up with a routine of exercises to do. It was great! It was so nice to be able to use all the equipment and just have fun! We ended up working out just short of an hour and both of us were pouring sweat by the end of it.
There were two great things that happened today. The first one and the big one.. I weighed in before Brian or Tina got there. I was nervous, I want to see the pounds come off but I'm trying to focus more on my overall wellness and fitness. I want to see myself push forward and be able to do things I couldn't do before and to be able to do them longer. Well I have lost four pounds!!! I'm so excited. Not only for the loss but I was able to hold full plank for 1 minute straight and I have always either dropped to my knees or took a break. It was great! The next goal for full plank is two minutes. That's what I'm talking about. Being able to push myself physically and just have a healthier lifestyle and improve my overall wellness.
I know each week I'm not going to lose that and plus I haven't weighed since before New York. I am on pace to losing just under 2 pounds a week. For me that's great. That's sustainable and the healthy way to lose without it coming back.
The other success point today is I am finally comfortable in shorts, in public. If you know me at all I never wear shorts and never have. I have always felt uncomfortable and would rather sweat my butt off than show my thighs. Today I wore shorts to the gym and to the grocery store after and felt great! It's the changes I am seeing in my body that is making me more excited than the pounds lost! Even though they go together :)
Well another good day, another good tale, and another good accomplishment! Moving forward with the new diet and the ever changing new me:)
Happy cookies !!!
So after so much training with Brian and taking the class a lot we came up with a routine of exercises to do. It was great! It was so nice to be able to use all the equipment and just have fun! We ended up working out just short of an hour and both of us were pouring sweat by the end of it.
There were two great things that happened today. The first one and the big one.. I weighed in before Brian or Tina got there. I was nervous, I want to see the pounds come off but I'm trying to focus more on my overall wellness and fitness. I want to see myself push forward and be able to do things I couldn't do before and to be able to do them longer. Well I have lost four pounds!!! I'm so excited. Not only for the loss but I was able to hold full plank for 1 minute straight and I have always either dropped to my knees or took a break. It was great! The next goal for full plank is two minutes. That's what I'm talking about. Being able to push myself physically and just have a healthier lifestyle and improve my overall wellness.
I know each week I'm not going to lose that and plus I haven't weighed since before New York. I am on pace to losing just under 2 pounds a week. For me that's great. That's sustainable and the healthy way to lose without it coming back.
The other success point today is I am finally comfortable in shorts, in public. If you know me at all I never wear shorts and never have. I have always felt uncomfortable and would rather sweat my butt off than show my thighs. Today I wore shorts to the gym and to the grocery store after and felt great! It's the changes I am seeing in my body that is making me more excited than the pounds lost! Even though they go together :)
Well another good day, another good tale, and another good accomplishment! Moving forward with the new diet and the ever changing new me:)
Happy cookies !!!
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Oh My Cookies!
Hey guys!!! I know it's been awhile since I have blogged. So sorry between work and traveling I have been a mess! I'm so glad to be home and back in my routine :)
After being on the road it was hard to keep to the diet and work outs. I did go kayaking with a good friend in Cleveland which was a great workout and great time! Cleveland was a good trip. Ended up learning more about myself and that place is no longer home. It's sad but good. I have finally made south Carolina and Greenville my home.
So the oh my cookies! I came back hit the ground running Monday with a night of training. Tina was there to workout with me and Brian! She did great, I was pouring sweat and she was right there pushing through and supporting me!
So the new diet started today. I was so excited to have string cheese! Finally no more dried tuna. Lots o chicken and protein here I come!!! I challenged myself on a whole new level tonight.
Everything Brian buys a new toy for the gym I secretly think how he can't torture me while working out. Tonight- 50 pound sand bag with handles. I knew I should have taken Matt's advice and run! So five minutes in and I'm pouring sweat! I was difficult but I pushed through. The last segment on the treadmill carrying this thing made me want to fall over. I made the stupid mistake of saying I'd rather do plank. So instead of jumping jacks or whatever he was thinking I did plank!
Ahhhh!!! Well the good news :) I lasted longer in full plank than I have before even half way through the workout! It was great. I'm really starting to see my strength and endurance increase even though I have not weighed in in at least three weeks. It's no longer just about to pounds but endurance, strength and long term health.
Super excited to push myself further:$ tomorrow is treadmill and running! Wish me luck bloggers because right now I'm exhausted and have to make chicken for lunch tomorrow!
Happy workouts = happy people!!!
After being on the road it was hard to keep to the diet and work outs. I did go kayaking with a good friend in Cleveland which was a great workout and great time! Cleveland was a good trip. Ended up learning more about myself and that place is no longer home. It's sad but good. I have finally made south Carolina and Greenville my home.
So the oh my cookies! I came back hit the ground running Monday with a night of training. Tina was there to workout with me and Brian! She did great, I was pouring sweat and she was right there pushing through and supporting me!
So the new diet started today. I was so excited to have string cheese! Finally no more dried tuna. Lots o chicken and protein here I come!!! I challenged myself on a whole new level tonight.
Everything Brian buys a new toy for the gym I secretly think how he can't torture me while working out. Tonight- 50 pound sand bag with handles. I knew I should have taken Matt's advice and run! So five minutes in and I'm pouring sweat! I was difficult but I pushed through. The last segment on the treadmill carrying this thing made me want to fall over. I made the stupid mistake of saying I'd rather do plank. So instead of jumping jacks or whatever he was thinking I did plank!
Ahhhh!!! Well the good news :) I lasted longer in full plank than I have before even half way through the workout! It was great. I'm really starting to see my strength and endurance increase even though I have not weighed in in at least three weeks. It's no longer just about to pounds but endurance, strength and long term health.
Super excited to push myself further:$ tomorrow is treadmill and running! Wish me luck bloggers because right now I'm exhausted and have to make chicken for lunch tomorrow!
Happy workouts = happy people!!!
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Cookies in pain
Hello everyone! I know it's been awhile since I have posted. Between work, working out and traveling I'm exhausted. I have 8 days in between trips so I decided I was going to workout everyday. I've been training doin Zumba and of course the treadmill.
Things are going well. Really sick of the diet and did splurge on the new York trip. So I came back and hit it hard again. Monday was legs therefore putting my thighs into a forever hatred of the rest of my body. I made it through and was pretty pumped up after it. Well until I woke up. Lol! I know pain means I'm alive but it makes it harder to go back
I did though. Today was another round of training. Schedule was to be rowing and well I don't know the specific exercise name it was a bar lifting straight up. I made it half way through and blew out my ankle. It has been bothering me for a bit and now it's getting swollen. I felt like I deserted my workout. I was getting it done, exhausting but fighting through it. Brian had me do the treadmill to slow down and try to walk it out.
So that's where the pain is. Now I sit on the couch with ice and a wrap. Tomorrow might not be a gym day but my hopes and high and hitting it hard as I can everyday! Time to power through and keep my goal in front of me!
Things are going well. Really sick of the diet and did splurge on the new York trip. So I came back and hit it hard again. Monday was legs therefore putting my thighs into a forever hatred of the rest of my body. I made it through and was pretty pumped up after it. Well until I woke up. Lol! I know pain means I'm alive but it makes it harder to go back
I did though. Today was another round of training. Schedule was to be rowing and well I don't know the specific exercise name it was a bar lifting straight up. I made it half way through and blew out my ankle. It has been bothering me for a bit and now it's getting swollen. I felt like I deserted my workout. I was getting it done, exhausting but fighting through it. Brian had me do the treadmill to slow down and try to walk it out.
So that's where the pain is. Now I sit on the couch with ice and a wrap. Tomorrow might not be a gym day but my hopes and high and hitting it hard as I can everyday! Time to power through and keep my goal in front of me!
Monday, June 18, 2012
Cookies for marbles
Today was an interesting day. For the past couple days I have been hating the food I have had to eat and I thought about cheating. The worst part has been the egg whites. I'm not going to say everything on my diet because well that's not fair to Brian as this is part of his business. But the egg whites have been killer and been making me sick. The only time I have eaten eggs is in an omelette. Well I found an alternative thanks to Brian
Afterwards he decided to do cardio kick boxing for an hour. Up until now my training sessions have been thirty minutes of go go go. Today was different. Nine different rotations and running two laps around the building and this building is on a hill.
The first time he had me run I made it half way without stopping. Today I made it around once, walked up the hill and ran the rest of the way. I was so excited! Running on pavement is so different for me from being on the treadmill. Right there alone was the boost I have been needing.
On to the circuit. I did well and really stepped it up from the last time we did kickboxing. The sit ups still suck but I was able to do more than last time. I am really excited than my endurance is picking up and I can do more and more each week. I was pouring sweat the entire time. By the end I was exhausted but I felt really accomplished and really proud of myself.
Then Brian decided since I won't be in town Friday for a weigh in we were going to do it tonight! Ahhhh!
Good news lost two more pounds! That's 8 pounds in three weeks!!! That's so awesome and I feel so great! I was starting to waiver but tonight's workout and weigh in has me 100% motivated again!
So the reason of cookies for marbles. I have two small glass bowls, one marble for each pound I want to lose. All the marbles are in one bowl and each pound I lose I get to move that marble. Any pound I gain it has to go back. It's really helped with the urge to snack in the living room because that's where I keep it! So here are my marbles that help keep me going!!!!
Here's to the marbles!!!!
Afterwards he decided to do cardio kick boxing for an hour. Up until now my training sessions have been thirty minutes of go go go. Today was different. Nine different rotations and running two laps around the building and this building is on a hill.
The first time he had me run I made it half way without stopping. Today I made it around once, walked up the hill and ran the rest of the way. I was so excited! Running on pavement is so different for me from being on the treadmill. Right there alone was the boost I have been needing.
On to the circuit. I did well and really stepped it up from the last time we did kickboxing. The sit ups still suck but I was able to do more than last time. I am really excited than my endurance is picking up and I can do more and more each week. I was pouring sweat the entire time. By the end I was exhausted but I felt really accomplished and really proud of myself.
Then Brian decided since I won't be in town Friday for a weigh in we were going to do it tonight! Ahhhh!
Good news lost two more pounds! That's 8 pounds in three weeks!!! That's so awesome and I feel so great! I was starting to waiver but tonight's workout and weigh in has me 100% motivated again!
So the reason of cookies for marbles. I have two small glass bowls, one marble for each pound I want to lose. All the marbles are in one bowl and each pound I lose I get to move that marble. Any pound I gain it has to go back. It's really helped with the urge to snack in the living room because that's where I keep it! So here are my marbles that help keep me going!!!!
Here's to the marbles!!!!
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Where Cookies Go To Die
Yup that's right. The other side of the gym.
I was thinking tonight might be a repeat of kettle bell hell but no he topped that one. I can always count on Brian for never repeating and always something new and focusing on a different area to train.
Tonight was the other side. It's kid of like ok I walk in the door and there are the treadmills or ellipticals or the area of kettle bells and balls. Tonight no more. We moved to the other side.
Yup that's deadweights, bench pressing, and the land of my thighs hating me:) We started off bench pressing. I'm think ok I got this. Then I was laying down and lifted the bar. Now I feel weak. Up until now I faced each exercise like I got this. Now for those of you who work out and are fit, I sound weak. After ten reps at 45 pounds I realized how weak my arms are. It made me upset and angry but it shouldn't. That is why I'm doing all of this, I make myself fit, active, and all around healthy.
Well in between was squats. I feel like the squats queen. My thighs don't but I do. Then it was on to dead weights. Another I got this. What's really nice about having Brian is the focus of why my form is as how it affects me. Staying in posture is key especially with the history of my back. Took a second to get the hang of it but I got it. Then in between push ups. Like my arms didn't have enough. Made it through!!!
Ok last two. Free weights and lunges. I was good the first go around and the free weight I was good. Lunges not so much. I will get better and my form was good. I was struggling but I know it's another activity to help me succeed. I know Brian is guiding me in the right direction. By the end I was sweating bullets but I felt like I don't know ... Off.
Oh well I will get over it. I made it through each exercise and gave it my all and pushed forward. I was about to leave and then the pain. Lol. I will be sore but sore means its working! Therefore I could barely lift my arms to drive.
Cookies died tonight as the walk up the steps to my apartment was more difficult than anticipated! Feel the burn! I wish someone was home cooking me dinner but it's I'm the oven and it's time for chicken with steamed broccoli!
That's all tonight I'm ready to eat and sleep. Another great day of moving toward my goals!
Happy cookies!
I was thinking tonight might be a repeat of kettle bell hell but no he topped that one. I can always count on Brian for never repeating and always something new and focusing on a different area to train.
Tonight was the other side. It's kid of like ok I walk in the door and there are the treadmills or ellipticals or the area of kettle bells and balls. Tonight no more. We moved to the other side.
Yup that's deadweights, bench pressing, and the land of my thighs hating me:) We started off bench pressing. I'm think ok I got this. Then I was laying down and lifted the bar. Now I feel weak. Up until now I faced each exercise like I got this. Now for those of you who work out and are fit, I sound weak. After ten reps at 45 pounds I realized how weak my arms are. It made me upset and angry but it shouldn't. That is why I'm doing all of this, I make myself fit, active, and all around healthy.
Well in between was squats. I feel like the squats queen. My thighs don't but I do. Then it was on to dead weights. Another I got this. What's really nice about having Brian is the focus of why my form is as how it affects me. Staying in posture is key especially with the history of my back. Took a second to get the hang of it but I got it. Then in between push ups. Like my arms didn't have enough. Made it through!!!
Ok last two. Free weights and lunges. I was good the first go around and the free weight I was good. Lunges not so much. I will get better and my form was good. I was struggling but I know it's another activity to help me succeed. I know Brian is guiding me in the right direction. By the end I was sweating bullets but I felt like I don't know ... Off.
Oh well I will get over it. I made it through each exercise and gave it my all and pushed forward. I was about to leave and then the pain. Lol. I will be sore but sore means its working! Therefore I could barely lift my arms to drive.
Cookies died tonight as the walk up the steps to my apartment was more difficult than anticipated! Feel the burn! I wish someone was home cooking me dinner but it's I'm the oven and it's time for chicken with steamed broccoli!
That's all tonight I'm ready to eat and sleep. Another great day of moving toward my goals!
Happy cookies!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Cookies Go To Zumba
Hey everyone! It's been a couple days do time to fill you in!
I didn't drink all weekend and I'm ok with that. I do however, miss my ice cold Miller Lite! One day, hopefully soon, I'll have you again :) I instead caught up on all my cleaning, laundry, and finally relaxing!
Saturday I got up and went to the local market with my parents. All my vegetables for a week for less than 9 dollars! After that it was time to each chicken and spinach and then I spent the rest of the day at the pool. It is my number one priority to be dark. Sick of being pale white or burnt! It is truly the way I relax and really the only time I relax.
Before you start asking what was your workout, I did not work out Friday Saturday or Sunday. I took the weekend off to finally relax for more than an hour. Sunday I spent with the family , of course still drinking my protein and dinner was blackened tilapia! It was so good. My dad, who is an amazing cook, helped me put together the rub. It was so good. Sunday night was back to my three days of egg whites :( I just don't like it but getting used to it.
Monday I was still on cloud nine from my six pound loss on Friday. Wouldn't you know it the day flew by and it was time to train. Not sure what he had in store for me. Although, he was sick of being inside so outside we went. Outside means running and I hate running.
So we ran. Well I ran. Up an down te hill, don't forget had to stop half way up do ten squats and then continue on. I had to stop to catch my breath. Not used to deep lung breathing but it's going to get better and I'm sure he's going to continue to make me run. My fear, it's south Carolina as the summer goes on the heat and humidity goes up. We all know I hate sweating and unfortunately that's not stopping.
Pushing forward, I ended up hitting the tractor tire with a sledge hammer for awhile. That was fun getting frustration out an until today when I woke up I had no idea how much my shoulders would be sore. Oh well moving on!
Today was Zumba! My sister and a friend came and it was so much fun and was not nearly as exhausted as I was the week before. I didn't stop as much to get water. Proud of myself. It was a great Zumba class tonight and tomorrow is another round of training with Brian!
Well I have run out of words and I'm starving so off to tuna and Brussels sprout! Enjoy!
I didn't drink all weekend and I'm ok with that. I do however, miss my ice cold Miller Lite! One day, hopefully soon, I'll have you again :) I instead caught up on all my cleaning, laundry, and finally relaxing!
Saturday I got up and went to the local market with my parents. All my vegetables for a week for less than 9 dollars! After that it was time to each chicken and spinach and then I spent the rest of the day at the pool. It is my number one priority to be dark. Sick of being pale white or burnt! It is truly the way I relax and really the only time I relax.
Before you start asking what was your workout, I did not work out Friday Saturday or Sunday. I took the weekend off to finally relax for more than an hour. Sunday I spent with the family , of course still drinking my protein and dinner was blackened tilapia! It was so good. My dad, who is an amazing cook, helped me put together the rub. It was so good. Sunday night was back to my three days of egg whites :( I just don't like it but getting used to it.
Monday I was still on cloud nine from my six pound loss on Friday. Wouldn't you know it the day flew by and it was time to train. Not sure what he had in store for me. Although, he was sick of being inside so outside we went. Outside means running and I hate running.
So we ran. Well I ran. Up an down te hill, don't forget had to stop half way up do ten squats and then continue on. I had to stop to catch my breath. Not used to deep lung breathing but it's going to get better and I'm sure he's going to continue to make me run. My fear, it's south Carolina as the summer goes on the heat and humidity goes up. We all know I hate sweating and unfortunately that's not stopping.
Pushing forward, I ended up hitting the tractor tire with a sledge hammer for awhile. That was fun getting frustration out an until today when I woke up I had no idea how much my shoulders would be sore. Oh well moving on!
Today was Zumba! My sister and a friend came and it was so much fun and was not nearly as exhausted as I was the week before. I didn't stop as much to get water. Proud of myself. It was a great Zumba class tonight and tomorrow is another round of training with Brian!
Well I have run out of words and I'm starving so off to tuna and Brussels sprout! Enjoy!
Friday, June 8, 2012
Cookies Weigh In
Last night was my last workout before the weigh in today. I was really nervous. Did my curcuit and treadmill for 45 minutes. I was sweating bullets. All I wanted to do was go home and relax with my dog :) But I kept thinking to myself tomorrow is the day. Tomorrow is the first weigh in on this new journey. So I stuck it out and figured if I am going to sweat, I was going to sweat big to make it worth it.
This morning I have felt great. Im not really sore just normal after a workout. I had my tea this morning and breakfast. I kept watching the clock the entire time. I knew Brian said he was coming in around 9. 9:30 I hear to the doorbell ring, thinking it was his I got nervous. It wasn't. Brian shows up around 10 and then it was d-day!
Just kidding. Stepped on the scale. LOST 6 POUNDS! I am so excited. I lost six pounds in one week. The healthy way. I worked out each day for an hour, ate the right food and the right portions and now I have six pounds of this journey gone. I have had a natural high all day. I am so excited to see my effort and of course Brian's is paying off. This was the number I needed to see to push forward. It sucks putting all your effort into something and then get unsatisfying results.
Who knew you didn't have to take pills, or drink so drink but good old fashion working out and eating correctly could make you so happy!
Onwards and upwards! Think Im going to start running tonight to build up my tolerance to running. Saturday I think I will be going to the Abs Butt and Core class as I love it and it's really helping stabilize my core, back, and strengthen my back. We all know I have had my share of back problems and I always thought it was the weight. Well it is but those muscles are so weak I need to focus on those.
Well back to work I go just thought I would share my good news!
Happy cookies!
This morning I have felt great. Im not really sore just normal after a workout. I had my tea this morning and breakfast. I kept watching the clock the entire time. I knew Brian said he was coming in around 9. 9:30 I hear to the doorbell ring, thinking it was his I got nervous. It wasn't. Brian shows up around 10 and then it was d-day!
Just kidding. Stepped on the scale. LOST 6 POUNDS! I am so excited. I lost six pounds in one week. The healthy way. I worked out each day for an hour, ate the right food and the right portions and now I have six pounds of this journey gone. I have had a natural high all day. I am so excited to see my effort and of course Brian's is paying off. This was the number I needed to see to push forward. It sucks putting all your effort into something and then get unsatisfying results.
Who knew you didn't have to take pills, or drink so drink but good old fashion working out and eating correctly could make you so happy!
Onwards and upwards! Think Im going to start running tonight to build up my tolerance to running. Saturday I think I will be going to the Abs Butt and Core class as I love it and it's really helping stabilize my core, back, and strengthen my back. We all know I have had my share of back problems and I always thought it was the weight. Well it is but those muscles are so weak I need to focus on those.
Well back to work I go just thought I would share my good news!
Happy cookies!
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Cookies Are Changing!
Hey readers!
I know I haven't posted in almost a week, it's been a crazy week! So I was allowed 2 beverages this weekend but no beer. Proud of myself! I went to happy hour Friday night and managed to sip on one of my vodka sodas for the entire time! I never even had the second drink! Saturday I did go to the gym for an hour to do circuit and treadmill. The entire time I was there I felt so uncomfortable and out of place. Very aware of what I was doing just really weird. I have no idea why I felt this way but I did. It's not like it was my first time at the gym or that I didn't know what I was doing. I am well in to my routine and what I need to focus on. Just another insecurity I just need to fight for the cause.
Saturday I had a Tastefully Simple party at the house and I have to say I did very well! While everyone else was enjoying beer bread, pound cake, and chips and dip I stuck to my carrots, peppers, and cucumbers! I also spent a good portion of the morning shopping for the new diet which started Sunday. It's a huge food change and portion size but I can say three days in im not really ever hungry. I eat almost ever 2-3 hours!
Sunday was a day of relaxation at the pool with the family and my apple and water! Watching some people enjoy their recent delivery of Domino's at the pool, I began to not like my apple :( But it is what it is. I got this way by not caring about the food I ate, when I ate it or how much I ate it. NO MORE! There was not a work out Sunday but my fish for dinner was very good! Red pepper flakes can spice up anything!
Monday I had training with Brian again! I am referring it to Kettle Bell Hell, just because it rhymes. It wasn't that bad. I remember being like OMG when is this going to end. And of course in between each kettle bell exercise there was rowing. I used to like to rowing machine and now its my enemy again. LOL Just kidding! I still like it just not for that long!
I have been pretty strict on my diet to ensure I am eating everything my plan tells me to! It has been 6 days since I have had coffee, diet coke, or anything but green tea protein shakes and water. The headaches are finally gone and strange enough I'm not exhausted. Coffee used to wake me up but now I like my protein shakes.
Tuesday night my sister and I did Zumba. It was so much fun!! She's going to start coming with me this summer. Wouldn't you know it, there was one song where you moved in place and the entire time you moved your arms differently, but kept them no lower than your shoulders. Stupidly I thought, damn if I didn't just do all the kettle bell exercises I probably would have given up on that dance.
Final great news! I am starting to see a difference in my waist. I won't go into fat people details, but I was really excited when I got out of the shower this morning and noticed it. Im starting to see a change which will continue to propel me further into a healthy and fit lifestyle!
Well better start work now but another training session with Brian tonight and weigh in on Friday!
Happy Cookies!
I know I haven't posted in almost a week, it's been a crazy week! So I was allowed 2 beverages this weekend but no beer. Proud of myself! I went to happy hour Friday night and managed to sip on one of my vodka sodas for the entire time! I never even had the second drink! Saturday I did go to the gym for an hour to do circuit and treadmill. The entire time I was there I felt so uncomfortable and out of place. Very aware of what I was doing just really weird. I have no idea why I felt this way but I did. It's not like it was my first time at the gym or that I didn't know what I was doing. I am well in to my routine and what I need to focus on. Just another insecurity I just need to fight for the cause.
Saturday I had a Tastefully Simple party at the house and I have to say I did very well! While everyone else was enjoying beer bread, pound cake, and chips and dip I stuck to my carrots, peppers, and cucumbers! I also spent a good portion of the morning shopping for the new diet which started Sunday. It's a huge food change and portion size but I can say three days in im not really ever hungry. I eat almost ever 2-3 hours!
Sunday was a day of relaxation at the pool with the family and my apple and water! Watching some people enjoy their recent delivery of Domino's at the pool, I began to not like my apple :( But it is what it is. I got this way by not caring about the food I ate, when I ate it or how much I ate it. NO MORE! There was not a work out Sunday but my fish for dinner was very good! Red pepper flakes can spice up anything!
Monday I had training with Brian again! I am referring it to Kettle Bell Hell, just because it rhymes. It wasn't that bad. I remember being like OMG when is this going to end. And of course in between each kettle bell exercise there was rowing. I used to like to rowing machine and now its my enemy again. LOL Just kidding! I still like it just not for that long!
I have been pretty strict on my diet to ensure I am eating everything my plan tells me to! It has been 6 days since I have had coffee, diet coke, or anything but green tea protein shakes and water. The headaches are finally gone and strange enough I'm not exhausted. Coffee used to wake me up but now I like my protein shakes.
Tuesday night my sister and I did Zumba. It was so much fun!! She's going to start coming with me this summer. Wouldn't you know it, there was one song where you moved in place and the entire time you moved your arms differently, but kept them no lower than your shoulders. Stupidly I thought, damn if I didn't just do all the kettle bell exercises I probably would have given up on that dance.
Final great news! I am starting to see a difference in my waist. I won't go into fat people details, but I was really excited when I got out of the shower this morning and noticed it. Im starting to see a change which will continue to propel me further into a healthy and fit lifestyle!
Well better start work now but another training session with Brian tonight and weigh in on Friday!
Happy Cookies!
Friday, June 1, 2012
Holy Cookies Its The Weekend!
So week one of the new workout is coming to an end. One last workout tomorrow morning filled with lots of fun cardio. LOL. Brian did send me my before photos and we will be doing progress photos along the way. I really don't want to post these because, well, they were taken at 6:00 in the morning after our kick boxing class. I was sweating,frumpy, and tired. Don't judge, lol. So here we go, my starting point photos.
If you look close enough you can see the sunburn on my legs! Hahaha . Girls gotta have her fun. Back to the other stuff. Kick boxing was so much fun I can't wait to do it again. I was told that I can have two drinks this weekend. YAY! But no beer. Im sorry but I don't think Brian realizes Im a Redmond and we drink BEER. LOL. Guess vodka it is! Im really excited about this because I didn't think he was going to let me drink at all!
Did you know that every drink of alcohol stops your body from burning fat for an hour? So if I workout four days a week for an hour each time, but have 4 beers on Friday night it basically means its all a wash! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!
Well short post tonight but cardio tomorrow and I will be posting tomorrow about my first grocery trip on the new plan!
Happy cookies!
If you look close enough you can see the sunburn on my legs! Hahaha . Girls gotta have her fun. Back to the other stuff. Kick boxing was so much fun I can't wait to do it again. I was told that I can have two drinks this weekend. YAY! But no beer. Im sorry but I don't think Brian realizes Im a Redmond and we drink BEER. LOL. Guess vodka it is! Im really excited about this because I didn't think he was going to let me drink at all!
Did you know that every drink of alcohol stops your body from burning fat for an hour? So if I workout four days a week for an hour each time, but have 4 beers on Friday night it basically means its all a wash! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!
Well short post tonight but cardio tomorrow and I will be posting tomorrow about my first grocery trip on the new plan!
Happy cookies!
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Cookies won't give up!
So today I was tired and didn't want to go :( but I'm not giving up. Sunburn is starting fade thank heavens. Tonight was cardio and circuit training.
Of course Brian checked in on me to make sure I wasn't slacking and of course he upped the weights. It was good I need to make sure that I'm giving 120% every time I work out otherwise what is the purpose?
So circuit training too about twenty minutes which was fine with me! Cardio- agh I hate it! I don't like sweating so working out on the treadmill sucks. Hence why I never do it. I have always used the elliptical. I could do forty on the elliptical and be good. Well good clearly isn't good enough since I haven't been losing the weight like I want to.
After 45 minutes on the treadmill I was ready to get off. My ankle hurt really bad but I pushed through it. And I was bored. I had the tv on, music on the iPod, and playing on Facebook to distract myself. None of that stopped me from looking at the timer hoping it would count down faster. All I kept thinking when I was at higher inclines or dragging was Brian in my head saying you can do anything for 20 seconds. When I was really wanting to just give up and finally go home and relax I just kept repeating that in my head!
Well the bar has been raised. I am focused on calorie burning. Well Brian has set the first pound goal. 2 pounds by next Friday. No less. I have to hit this goal. Every little goal set I need to work my butt off to hit because every small goal will lead to my ultimate goal! So the bar has been raised and I'm going to continue to step it up!
Hope you enjoyed!
Of course Brian checked in on me to make sure I wasn't slacking and of course he upped the weights. It was good I need to make sure that I'm giving 120% every time I work out otherwise what is the purpose?
So circuit training too about twenty minutes which was fine with me! Cardio- agh I hate it! I don't like sweating so working out on the treadmill sucks. Hence why I never do it. I have always used the elliptical. I could do forty on the elliptical and be good. Well good clearly isn't good enough since I haven't been losing the weight like I want to.
After 45 minutes on the treadmill I was ready to get off. My ankle hurt really bad but I pushed through it. And I was bored. I had the tv on, music on the iPod, and playing on Facebook to distract myself. None of that stopped me from looking at the timer hoping it would count down faster. All I kept thinking when I was at higher inclines or dragging was Brian in my head saying you can do anything for 20 seconds. When I was really wanting to just give up and finally go home and relax I just kept repeating that in my head!
Well the bar has been raised. I am focused on calorie burning. Well Brian has set the first pound goal. 2 pounds by next Friday. No less. I have to hit this goal. Every little goal set I need to work my butt off to hit because every small goal will lead to my ultimate goal! So the bar has been raised and I'm going to continue to step it up!
Hope you enjoyed!
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Cookies Don't Like Mirrors
Mirrors.
I know gyms have mirrors for a reason. But no offense I don't want to see myself as I do a squat. Brian, from Anytime Fitness, kept yelling at me to keep my head up. I don't want to look at myself I would rather do it in a corner like I was in trouble or something. I can't help it, I judge myself while I'm working out... how bad is that! Now that I got my vent out about the mirrors I can move on!
So yesterday I took the day to just relax, cleaned the house, and spent two hours at the pool with friends and my mom. I had a blast, first time I have truly relaxed in awhile. As a result - I'm a flipping lobster :( All day I was cringing every time I walked. Trying to sleep last night was a disaster. But I was determined to go to the gym. I wasn't going to flake from the start. I convinced a friend I work with that if I was going to do it sun-burnt from head to toe, you have to go.
I was nervous going in and had a chat with Brian and Jeffrey, I think, I've seen him at the gym but never really talked to him. He immediately asked me how my diet was going, how I felt about the workouts, and was interested in my success but I never even knew him. That's the thing I like about Anytime Fitness. They care about your success whether you have known them 2 minutes or 2 years. It was a nice motivator going forward.
So we start with a warm up on the treadmill. Good to go! Then Brian comes over and goes " Let's Have Some Fun!" I didn't have the same enthusiasm as him. LOL. I begin and immediately, because of those stupid mirrors, I see I'm sweating, and my face is bright red. Of course! Another thing I don't want to see!
I had a good thirty minute calorie burning workout. Brian was very supportive and pushing me to continue. He wasn't the drill sergeant that makes you want to cry or throw up. He was encouraging and pushed me as far as he knew he could. It was great. I am so excited about moving forward with him and this plan.
I received my food plan, and I am a little nervous. It's more calories than I have been eating, but I trust Brian and his plan for me. He has invested in me and I will not let him down. There are things I don't like on it so that will be changed, hopefully :)
I'm sorry, oatmeal and cottage cheese just gross me out and if I don't eat those there is no way that's going to keep me from losing weight. It's all about balance.
So now Im home and finally relaxin with aloe to cool down this burn. I am excited about moving forward and this burn going away! Tomorrow's plan is cardio and circuit training on the weight machines!
No cookies for me tonight!
I know gyms have mirrors for a reason. But no offense I don't want to see myself as I do a squat. Brian, from Anytime Fitness, kept yelling at me to keep my head up. I don't want to look at myself I would rather do it in a corner like I was in trouble or something. I can't help it, I judge myself while I'm working out... how bad is that! Now that I got my vent out about the mirrors I can move on!
So yesterday I took the day to just relax, cleaned the house, and spent two hours at the pool with friends and my mom. I had a blast, first time I have truly relaxed in awhile. As a result - I'm a flipping lobster :( All day I was cringing every time I walked. Trying to sleep last night was a disaster. But I was determined to go to the gym. I wasn't going to flake from the start. I convinced a friend I work with that if I was going to do it sun-burnt from head to toe, you have to go.
I was nervous going in and had a chat with Brian and Jeffrey, I think, I've seen him at the gym but never really talked to him. He immediately asked me how my diet was going, how I felt about the workouts, and was interested in my success but I never even knew him. That's the thing I like about Anytime Fitness. They care about your success whether you have known them 2 minutes or 2 years. It was a nice motivator going forward.
So we start with a warm up on the treadmill. Good to go! Then Brian comes over and goes " Let's Have Some Fun!" I didn't have the same enthusiasm as him. LOL. I begin and immediately, because of those stupid mirrors, I see I'm sweating, and my face is bright red. Of course! Another thing I don't want to see!
I had a good thirty minute calorie burning workout. Brian was very supportive and pushing me to continue. He wasn't the drill sergeant that makes you want to cry or throw up. He was encouraging and pushed me as far as he knew he could. It was great. I am so excited about moving forward with him and this plan.
I received my food plan, and I am a little nervous. It's more calories than I have been eating, but I trust Brian and his plan for me. He has invested in me and I will not let him down. There are things I don't like on it so that will be changed, hopefully :)
I'm sorry, oatmeal and cottage cheese just gross me out and if I don't eat those there is no way that's going to keep me from losing weight. It's all about balance.
So now Im home and finally relaxin with aloe to cool down this burn. I am excited about moving forward and this burn going away! Tomorrow's plan is cardio and circuit training on the weight machines!
No cookies for me tonight!
Saturday, May 26, 2012
History of Cookies :)
I like cookies, who doesn't! Let's face it we all could do things to improve out health. Tuesday begins what I am referring to currently as Boot Camp. I am working with the owner of my gym, having training twice a week and then circuit training and cardio twice a week. I want to show I can lose the weight and keep it off without using some fad diet or taking pills. I want to lose it and he wants to help me get there! So together we will be monitoring my food intake, the quality of my food, portion size, and of course the coup de gras= exercise.
Exercise is my worst enemy. I HATE sweating, I hate feel sore or achy for days after. The weight is not going to go away until I make the personal commitment to move past what I hate and bear the grunt to show on the outside the person I am.
This blog will be my release, my aggravations, my frustrations, and most importantly my success. So feel free to live through my fight with me. To understand the fight you have to understand me and the history of my cookies and weight :)
There are things I am about to say that I don't tell everyone or care to relive. However, I must face the past to build myself back up, healthy, to move forward with my success.
Every since I was little I was active but also big. I have not been below 200 pounds since the 5th grade. I have come close several times in my life but for whatever reasons I never kept at it to hit goal. Oh yeah by the weigh my goal is 170 pounds. Currently I am 232. Another thing I don't make known. So my fight- I remember always being picked on for being the fat kid from 6th grade on. A girl in my 8th grade class thought it would be funny to pull out my chair when I was sitting down, ended up in the hospital. What she didn't know is that I hurt my back months before and a few days before this happened I finally finished physical therapy. My back. I always have back problems, part from the weight, and part from accidents or incidents such as that one. I feel I sometimes use my back to get out of pushing myself further. NO MORE!
High school was great. I really was active and ended up getting down to 205 for my junior and senior year. I love it I felt great and looked great. Once graduation hit, I was scared to leave, scared of college, and just plain scared. I have always used food for comfort, whether I was lonely, mad, sad, or happy. Food was my thing. Cookies were my thing. I moved away 2 months after graduation and started gaining weight again in college. Started losing again at the end of my freshman year. That summer I got into a relationship.
I didn't realize it then, but I was so unhappy and ate my way through my unhappiness. Without realizing I blew up to 300 pounds. I am guessing 300 because I refused to weigh myself, but was in size 20 jeans which just crushed me. I have always been in an 18 for most of my life. There was one major event that happened, even though it was a short simple conversation. My brother mentioned to my mom how unhappy I seemed and I was gaining serious weight and needed to realize what I was doing to my body. It took courage but I ended the relationship I was so miserable in. I started living for me and the weight started coming back off. I got in the gym and just did what I could.
I got down to 220 when I moved to Greenville in 2010 after accepting a job near my family. I have lived in Greenville now for almost two years and it has been a battle of me having the energy or want to lose it and months of not caring or thinking I'm good. Well I am not.
I love my life and doing it on my own. Finally got my own place here and I know my entire family is supporting me with everything I do. I know they want me to succeed in my weight loss as much as I do.
So its Memorial Day weekend. Tuesday I will begin a journey to lose 62 pounds or more through hard work and dedication. I really want my body to resemble me, my personality, and who I am on the inside. I want to be healthy and be able to enjoy hiking, fishing, camping and anything I want to do in life. This battle has gone on long enough and i'm ready to put forth all the energy to make myself happy.
So if you want, check back to see the updates of my journey!
Exercise is my worst enemy. I HATE sweating, I hate feel sore or achy for days after. The weight is not going to go away until I make the personal commitment to move past what I hate and bear the grunt to show on the outside the person I am.
This blog will be my release, my aggravations, my frustrations, and most importantly my success. So feel free to live through my fight with me. To understand the fight you have to understand me and the history of my cookies and weight :)
There are things I am about to say that I don't tell everyone or care to relive. However, I must face the past to build myself back up, healthy, to move forward with my success.
Every since I was little I was active but also big. I have not been below 200 pounds since the 5th grade. I have come close several times in my life but for whatever reasons I never kept at it to hit goal. Oh yeah by the weigh my goal is 170 pounds. Currently I am 232. Another thing I don't make known. So my fight- I remember always being picked on for being the fat kid from 6th grade on. A girl in my 8th grade class thought it would be funny to pull out my chair when I was sitting down, ended up in the hospital. What she didn't know is that I hurt my back months before and a few days before this happened I finally finished physical therapy. My back. I always have back problems, part from the weight, and part from accidents or incidents such as that one. I feel I sometimes use my back to get out of pushing myself further. NO MORE!
High school was great. I really was active and ended up getting down to 205 for my junior and senior year. I love it I felt great and looked great. Once graduation hit, I was scared to leave, scared of college, and just plain scared. I have always used food for comfort, whether I was lonely, mad, sad, or happy. Food was my thing. Cookies were my thing. I moved away 2 months after graduation and started gaining weight again in college. Started losing again at the end of my freshman year. That summer I got into a relationship.
I didn't realize it then, but I was so unhappy and ate my way through my unhappiness. Without realizing I blew up to 300 pounds. I am guessing 300 because I refused to weigh myself, but was in size 20 jeans which just crushed me. I have always been in an 18 for most of my life. There was one major event that happened, even though it was a short simple conversation. My brother mentioned to my mom how unhappy I seemed and I was gaining serious weight and needed to realize what I was doing to my body. It took courage but I ended the relationship I was so miserable in. I started living for me and the weight started coming back off. I got in the gym and just did what I could.
I got down to 220 when I moved to Greenville in 2010 after accepting a job near my family. I have lived in Greenville now for almost two years and it has been a battle of me having the energy or want to lose it and months of not caring or thinking I'm good. Well I am not.
I love my life and doing it on my own. Finally got my own place here and I know my entire family is supporting me with everything I do. I know they want me to succeed in my weight loss as much as I do.
So its Memorial Day weekend. Tuesday I will begin a journey to lose 62 pounds or more through hard work and dedication. I really want my body to resemble me, my personality, and who I am on the inside. I want to be healthy and be able to enjoy hiking, fishing, camping and anything I want to do in life. This battle has gone on long enough and i'm ready to put forth all the energy to make myself happy.
So if you want, check back to see the updates of my journey!
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